Bag Lady:(Book One)

Bag 31--Don't Be Afraid

(Aryah Above)

"I know it's not the first time
That you ever felt this way before
but those memories are still lasting
Of the pain you got for your trusting
So when love calls you walk out the door
But this time, girl

Don't be afraid of the way you feel don't be afraid
Open your heart and you'll see it's real oh it's real love
It's real love" ~Skyy "Real Love"

My IPhone 6 started to light up and I looked at the screen, it was Drew. I swiped to answer and held the phone to my ear.

"Bitch where the fuck are you with my kids!"

"Good morning Andrew, and I'll bring them back in a minute, I just had to get out of that house."

"You know what Nessa, you really pushing me. Stop doin' dumb shit, you not they mama you can't just take em! Bring my kids back now!" He hung up and I took a deep breath.

.......

I unlocked Andrew's apartment door and the kids ran in the house and start playing as usual. I pulled Desireè arms gently and she turned to me.

"Go get your stuff ready so we can go home"

I sat on the couch, while looking at my phone and waited for her. I the sensed some one near, I looked to my right and Andrew was standing at the end of the couch, I turned away and continued to look at my phone.

But he took it away from me, while taking off my sun glasses and lifted my chin up. He appraised the bruises he planted on my face and I wanted to shed tears, because even though he didn't say a word, I still felt hurt.

"I'm not sorry" he spoke and let me go.

"Fuck you" I mumbled.

"Can I get my damn phone back please?" I snapped

He threw it againts the wall.

"There you go"

"I fuckin hate you! You did that for no reason! Childish bitch!"

"You killed my baby for no reason! I'm not childish, your the one who still make dumb ass teenage decisions! Hurry up and get out"

A knock came upon the door and he opened it. A lightskinned woman came in, she had long jet black hair, and she looked so professional.

"I'm sorry I late, got stuck in a meeting. Are they ready?"

"I still need to get them dress" he said

"Come on man, your never ready " she said very proper.

"Hello" she smiled at me

"Hi" I spoke slightly.

"Drew?!" She snapped.

"What?"

"Aren't you going to introduce me to thr girl on the couch."

"Fine" he rolled his eyes "Aryah this is my baby mama Janessa, and Janessa this is my older sister Aryah"

"Your baby mama?" I asked

"Okay okay, my girlfriend" he fronted,

"Nice to meet you Aryah"

"You too!" She smiled and shook my hand

"So your Kada's sister too?"

"Ewww" she said disgusted then she stopped her self "I mean--No we are not related see Kada and Drew have the same dad but different mom's. And I'm on his mom's side."

I thought they all came from the same parents

"Auntie!!" Ria and A.J cheered as they hugged her.

"Hi babies, are yall ready for our fun day"

"Yes!"Ria said

Desireè came out the room with her 'Hello Kitty' book bag and stood in front of me.

"I'm ready mom"

"Is that your daughter you were talking about Drew?" Aryah asked,

"Yeah that's Desireè"

"Aww she look just like the both of you, where are you going lil lady?"

"I gotta go home with mom"

"Can she come with us, where going to the carnival"

"Umm I d--"

"Yeah she can go" Andrew cut me off.

"I believe I was talking to her mother." She said sternly.

"When will you guys be done?"

"I was going to go take them to go see Goosebumps afterwards, I say they'll be back at about 8pm"

"Can I go mom"

"Yes you need to behave, you understand?"

"Yes mommy"

......

The kids left and I grabbed my phone from across the room. It was cracked completely, I just threw it back down and walked towards Andrew's room.

Him and his damn brother will never smash another one of my phones again!

"Give me some money so I can buy a new phone!"

"Get out, I'm not giving you shit. You shake yo ass right for a living right? You can pay for it"

"I hate you! Your so stupid!"

"Get the fuck out bitch!"

"Call me another bitch, imma show you how much of a bitch I really am!"

"You already did!"

"Fuck you" I threw a shoe near by at him and he rushed up to me and grabbed my neck.

"What the fuck is wrong with you" he choked me.

He then let go and stared me in my face and kissed me passionately. I nibbled on his bottom lip and wrapped my arms around his neck. He picked me up and I bundled my legs around his waist. We both fell on the bed and he gently took off my clothes, then he gently kissed me from my neck all the way down to my navel.

I pulled him close to me, forcing him to lookat me.

"You forgive me even after what I did

"You broke my heart, and I understand I broke yours. But even though I hurt you didn't mean you had to kill our child, you took a way a life. That baby was something special, it was made out of love not rape baby"

"I'm sorry Drew, but I was angry for almost 10 years I've had that event on my mind and it hurts like hell to know that you was one of them"

"I know you may never really listen to this, but I was young okay? But I admit I made a mistake and I'm sorry I hurt you. But unlike my brother I actually changed, let me prove it to you."

"I don't wanna feel dumb Drew! You raped me, come on now"

"Do you love me?"

"With all my heart"

"Then don't be afraid of the way you feel, if you love me than be with me. Don't worry about what outsiders think. Try to leave it in the past and let me gain your trust" he kissed my lips.

"Make love to me Drew"