Hopeless Love (demi lovato lesbian fanfic)

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Eva's pov

I closed the door of Demi's appartment but I had too much emotional pain so I couldn't walk away just yet. I settled myself down on the floor, right before her door. I could hear her standing up from the sofa, probably walking to the kitchen to get something to drink. I also hear her cry. Really hard and it literally breaks my heart.

After thirty minutes I finally find the energy to stand up and walk to a hotel, where I can sleep for one night. I booked my flight for tomorrow morning so I would be right on time for my internship in the afternoon.

I lie down in bed as soon as I enter my hotel room, not even bothering to look after my stuff. My visit to LA was so not what I expected from it. I wanted to spent a nice 24 hours with girlfriend but instead we had a heavy fight. Although it hurts, I know I made the right decision. But I was scared for what would happen in two months. What if she's still finding comfort in her addictions then? What if she is gonna choose not going to rehab above me? If that happened I wouldn't be there when she'd bring out her album. And I wouldn't have to look for a job in LA. Luckily my internship would end right before I was supposed to visit Demi again so I wouldn't have to hurry with getting a job, while not knowing where yet.

Because of all the emotional exhausting today it didn't take long for me to fall asleep. My alarm wakes me up in the morning and after getting ready I go to the airport. As the plane lands in Texas again, I sprint to the hospital as soon as possible. I actually love working as a nurse.

For the next few days ,or as I should say weeks, this was all I did. My daily routine was going to internship, buy groceries and be sad. I barely spoke to people. The only exceptions were my friend ,Alison, and my brother David. But talking to David was hard since the rest of the family couldn't know about him talking to me. The conversations between me and David were mostly about Demi. I could tell him how much everything affected me and he listened. That was all I needed.

In the past month I didn't look on social media or read any gossip magazines because I was scared to see something bad about Demi in it. I closed myself off from the world. And just as I thought things couldn't get worse, they got.

It was on a Monday morning and I had no internship today. I went to a music shop to buy new guitar strings. It was a big store, where you could find anything music related. I found the strings I need and walk around the store for a bit, until I end up on the cd section. I look around there as I see a familiar face on one of the cd's.

Demi.

I walk towards it and see that it ,indeed, is Demi. My Demi. And this her new album. The album she wanted to bring out when I was with her but she did alone. Without even telling me.

"Are you okay ma'am?"

I look up to see an employee next to me. It's now that I realize there are some tears running down my face. "Yeah yeah I'm okay" I smiled at him "Do you know when she dropped this album?"

"Oh just yesterday and it's almost sold out, already. A lot of costumers tell me it's really good. Do you wanna buy it?"

"Yes" I say while nodding. I walk with the employee towards the cash desk together with my guitar strings and Demi's album.

"That makes $24,99 together"

I hand him the money and he puts my stuff in a plastic bag.

"Thank you" I say before walking home.

As soon as I come home, I let my tears go. I didn't realize we have grown this far apart in just one month. I thought about her every day, every hour, every single minute and apparently she already forgot about me.

Or was she so sad that she burried herself in recording so she didn't have to think about me?

I honestly didn't know and I obviously couldn't ask her, but it hurts.

I poured some water in a glass and put Demi's cd into the cd player. The first song started playing and it was called 'wildfire' and it was absolutely beautiful, just as all the other songs. I loved listening to her angelic voice. But it also made me miss her. Especially when track 11 came on: 'Take me to church'. I took me back to when we face timed and she sang that song for me, not that long ago.

After listening to the whole album I picked up my phone and typed a message to Demi saying 'Congrats on the album. It's amazing X'. I know I did not follow the rules of our break at this point. Maybe that's why she never sent a message back.

After this Monday I focussed fully on completing my internship. And that's what I did. Three weeks after Demi brought out her album and one week before I was supposed to visit, I completed my internship and graduated. I am officialy a nurse now. The hospital I did my internship offered me a job and I told them I would let them know if I would take after I talked to Demi, and they were okay with that.

A week after I got graduated I took a plane to LA and finally went to see Demi again.

I am excited to see her again but on the other side I am so scared of what might happen. I scared of the conversation we might have. I am scared she hasn't said goodbye to alcohol, drugs and blades yet. Then I have to let her choose between having to go to rehab or breaking up with me.

The whole flight I was nauseous because of anxiety. Once we arrived in LA it got even worse and I had to throw up at the airport.

I called a taxi and it took only ten minutes for the driver to bring me to Demi's appartment. After I got out of the taxi I gathered courage to walk inside the building and ring Demi's doorbell. I took only a few seconds for her to open the door. After two months of not speaking a worth with each other we finally stood in front of each other.

Demi and I.

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Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
No religion too
Imagine all the people
Living live in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

Let's just pray for the world.