Hopeless Love (demi lovato lesbian fanfic)

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Demi's pov

Two weeks after the incident I was released from the hospital which meant we only had 6 days together before I would leave for LA. It wasnt a nice thing but we tried to make the best of it. Those 6 days were for us, and only us. We planned dates or stayed in bed all day. Soon the last day came. We made love several times that day and cuddled while watching movies until it was time for dinner. We decided on going out for a romantic dinner in a fancy restaurant.

"Might be the last time we can walk like this without paparazzi following us." Eva said as we walked hand in hand.

"Well yeah maybe... but you know the contract I have with the record label right now is only for a year so it might happen that they dont like my music and voice so people wont buy and I wont get a new contract so I have to go back to being a stripper again." I tried to joke but Eva didnt found it very funny.

"Demetria" Eva yelled out loud "You will never go back to being a stripper again, okay? People will like your music just as much as I do. You will live near your family again so you will have their support and Im sure people will buy your music because they followed your story and they will be curious about your music and they will be obsessed with it. Give yourself some credit, you've come pretty far. You did this before, remember? I dont know any artist who's as talented as you are."

A smile played around my lips. "I love you Eva Grace Hemmings" I said before placing a long, soft kiss on my lips.

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I watched Eva's face as she looked at the menu to decide what to eat. Damn I love this girl and my heart ached as I think of how much I will miss her when Im in LA.

"Would you like to order something to drink?" An waiter interrupted my thoughts.

"Yes, a coke please and for my girlfriend a ...?" Eva looked at me, waiting for an answer "I want a white wine please" I smiled at the waiter.

"Okay" The waiter said as he wrote it on "did you also wanted to order food now?"

I nodded and we told him what we wanted to eat and not long after that he left, leaving us alone again.

"Demi" Eva looked kinda angry as she spoke to me "White wine? I thought we agreed on you not doing alcohol anymore?"

I rolled my eyes, annoyed. I know she was right and I know that I continued to disspoint her but who cared about one wine less or more. "I just one, okay? I promised I will stop so I will but just not yet."

"Not yet? Not yet? Before you know youre an addict who ends up in the gutter. You fucking promised me." She almost screamed.

Oh little did she know I already was an addict. I was in deep shit and not ready to stop anytime soon, but she didnt have to know that. "Lets not bicker about that on our last night together, okay? I promise I will not drink or use any drugs when I am in LA. Nor will I cut myself. I promise." I lied. I lied hard this time but it was for Eva's own sake. I couldnt lose her but I also couldnt lose the substance.

"Well okay then." Eva said, not looking statisfied with my answer.

Not soon after that the waiter brought our drinks and food. We tried to enjoyed what was left of this evening but it was kinda hard and before we knew it we had to wake up. It was just a little over 8am when Eva dropped me off at the airport.

"Im gonna miss you" I said as I turned around for one last kiss, which Eva replied to. The kiss endured long and it was full of desire. It wasnt until we broke away from each other that I realized that the salt I tasted during the kiss was from my own tears.

"Im gonna miss you too, honey" Eva said "Life just sucks without you."

"We're gonna facetime and call and text and visit as much as we can, okay?"

"Yes"

We said our goodbyes and I walked towards the in check line as I realize something. I turned around and saw Eva standing there, trying to wipe her own tears away as she walked towards the exit. "Wait ,Eva, wait." I yelled and she slowly turned around "I wrote a letter to you, so you can read it whenever you miss me." I handed her the envelop before walking away again.

Eva's pov

I walked to the exit of the airport with the envelop Demi gave me in my hands. You wouldnt expect it but this girl could be hella romantic at times. As soon as I reached my car I start reading.

Dear Eva,

Three months apart... though we've only been together for like 6 months I dont know what to do without you. You're my whole world Eva and I cant describe my love for you because words can't handle how big it is. My life has become way better since the day you showed up. You gave me the courage to go back to my family. Because of you I got a new record label. You made me realize that I deserved more than being a stripper. You gave your family up for me, Eva, so I know you love me just as much as I love you. I will miss you and I know you will miss me too and that's why I'm writing this letter to you, so you can turn to it everytime you miss me and you will realize how much I love you. Because I do love you. I'm hoping to spent the rest of my life with you and though we're not ready for that yet I know that one day we will get married. Eva Grace Hemmings, know that the words I wrote you came from my heart, remember those always.

Love, Demi

My hands are shaking as I fold the letter and put it back into the envelop. She described perfectly how much we love each other. I love this girl but I have some bad, gut feeling that something is going wrong and it scared me to death.

Demi's pov

As soon as I arrived in La I went to my parents house to say hi. I ate dinner there and right after that I went to my own appartment, giving myself some alone time since the next day I had to get in to the studio and write plus record.

When I arrived at my appartment I sat down in my kitchen. Although I have been in LA for just a few hours, I already missed Eva. And there was only one way to forget about how much I missed her. It was the one thing I promised Eva not to do. I curled my lips around a bottle of vodka but not before I sniffed some coke. Before I knew it I was with my head in a whole other world, totally forgetting about Eva.