Hopeless Love (demi lovato lesbian fanfic)

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8.

Demi's pov

Eva and I spent the next few days in my family's house. It was amazing to spend time with them again and sometimes I wonder why I ever left them but there are nights where I remember exactly why I left them. I left them because I was a failure and wasn't worth to be in this family. Nights when I felt like this I would walk downstairs and drink some alcohol bottles while sniffing some cocaine. I would wake up the next morning with fresh cuts on my wrists.

Also I really like being in Eva's company but she knows something is wrong with me. Isn't it weird how we only know each other for only five months and already know each other inside and outside? We know when something is wrong with the other one, we know when someone needs some space to be alone, we know when someone needs a hug; a kis; or just sex. I guess that's what they call 'real love'. I believe I found the one when I found Eva.

 "Are you ready, babe?" I look up to see Eva standing there, looking at me concerned.

A nauseous wave suddenly overwhelms me. Am I ready? Will I ever be ready?

I nod. "Yeah let's do this."

I walk with Eva down the stairs and we go into the livingroom where parents are.

"we're going." I tell them and mom and Eddie stand up to hug me.

"Goodluck, babygirl"

Were did I deserve such great parents that they just took me back in the family after I walked away 6 years ago. They ,ofcourse, told me how hard it was for them and how they blamed theirselves. When I told them I became a stripper my mom totally broke down. 

"Hey dreamer. Let's go." Eva holds me out of my trance.

"Are you nervous?" She asks as we walk to the car.

"Mhm" 

Eva nods, knowing that I don't need words right now. Just her company and knowing that she's there for me is good enough.

I take deep breaths as we drive. Today is the day. Im going to a record label and no not my old one. I heard stories about Hollywood Records and in fact they are trash so I'm going to another one called: Island records. My mom told me that an old friend of mine ,Nick Jonas, had a contract there too. I didn't expect a contract or something but I just want the world to know that Demi Lovato is back and is planning on becoming a singer again. I know this is what I want but on the other side I'm scared as hell. The last time I was planning on a carreer in the spotlights I ran away from my family and problems and my mental health fragile.

"Maybe I'll see Nick." I say.

"Who's Nick?" Eva frowns.

 "You know the guy were my mom talked about. Nick Jonas, he used to be one of my best friends."

"Oh yes Nick Jonas mhm." Eva nods. "We're here ,babe."

I look out of the window and see a huge building standing in front of me. I look back at the clock and see that we only have two minutes before we have the appointment with one of the guys named, Luke.

"Are you ready?" Eva holds my hand as we walk inside.

Eva's pov

 I l ook through a big window full of glass to see and hear Demi singing while this Luke guys is recording her. The conversation Demi and Luke had went so well. She told him who she was and he ,luckily, remembered her. He also said that he want to know how much potential there is in here voice right now and that's why we are here. 

And I have to admit that I'm scared. I ,ofcourse, support Demi going for her carreer as a singer. I mean everything is better than being a stripper but on the other side I'm afraid the pressure on Demi gets to big again. Isn't that exactly the reason why she ran away last time? Wasn't that exactly the reason why she started self-harming and trying out drugs and alcohol? Sometimes I wonder why I ever started a relationship with her but it's just that I love her. 

"So Eva what do you think about it?" Luke asks as Demi is finished with singing.

"She has such a great voice. When she sings it's like an angel just fell out of heaven."

Luke smiles "Yeah she obviously has the talent but that's not what I mean. Can she handle the pressure? She disappeared out of the spotlight for six years long, I don't think that was without a reason. So what do you think?"

I sigh and shrug, not knowing what to answer.

"Should I sign her or not?" Luke asks.

"Yeah you should. She has the voice and with the right support system around her she can handle the pressure." I tell him, hoping that it's true.

Later I'll find that I should have never said this.

Luke wents inside the little studio and from the other side of the window I can see how Demi takes the news. Her smile tells me she's happy but her eyes tell me she's scared.

"Eva, Eva they signed me. They fucking signed me, can you believe it?! They are slowly getting me back into publicity and I'm gonna make an album and I'm so excited!" Demi hugs me excited and I hug her back and hold her thight. I know I should be happy for her but it feels like I have to let her go just because of this and I don't know why.

We go back to the car because Demi can't wait to tell her parents the good news. But suddenly her mood changes. From totally excited she goes to extremly silent.

"Are you okay, Dems?" I ask carefully.

"Eva there's just one little problem; I haven't tell Raphael ,the owner of the stripclub, that I'm gonna stop yet."

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I hope you all understand what's happening right now. If something isn't clear just tell me and I will explain.

I don't know if any of my readers is from paris/france but I want you to know that I keep you in my prayers. It's absolutely horrible what happened there. I actually have no words for it but I hope you can live in peace after thet death of those terrorists.Stay strong!

You deserve to love yourself.