Fixing a broken girl

Chapter 2: Threats from a fellow brother

Nate Maloley ^^^^
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The smell of bacon and eggs lingered in my room, now that it didn't have as much objects, the beautiful smell was easily caught on my food radar. Which made me wake up instantly.

Tyler and I weren't morning people but when someone has gracefully blessed us with delicious mouthwatering food, we'd race to get to it. The door creaked open and Kaye appeared at the threshold, "hey you two sleepy heads! You hungry?" Tyler sat up next to me and rubbed his eyes before looking at me.

"Race ya!" Ripping off my sheets, I jump over the bed and head for the door, tripping Tyler on the way there, he fell and groaned, which made me chuckle, when I reached the kitchen, My eyes darted to the figure standing there with their back facing towards me. Who was this person? And why were they in my house. Surely Kaye knew about this. "Kaye?" I yelled.

Once he noticed me, our gazes stayed put for at least a good five minutes, before Tyler entered the kitchen and his focus was set on where I was looking. Then he realised who was in our house.

Tyler gave Nate a death glare! "What are you doing here creeper?" Nate looked at me with a worried look, thinking he might get a hit from Tyler any second, wouldn't mind it though. It would be any interesting start to my day.

"Uh I came to see Eves" Tyler looked at me with an angered emotion but turned and looked at Nate "alright! Two minutes Maloley! Or I'll have your balls on a plater!" he grabbed his plate of food and huffed while stomping out, for an idiotic pain in the butt, he does have an advantage of overprotecting me.

"Uh hey, um, I - uh, well you. Look good" he stuttered like the cartoon character Porky Pig off looney tunes. "Thanks, what do you want?" I knew he wasn't there to make small talk, so he better cut to the chase.

"Um, well I wanted to say a couple of things", looking down at my knotted fingers, Nate slowly walked towards me and lifted my chin, I flinched at the touch. He had a shocked look on his face but didn't say anything until I moved backwards.
"Are you scared of me?". There was a pain in my chest when he said that, but I had to keep strong! "No!" I said bluntly, I wasn't scared of Nate nor did I feel intimidated, I guess I just didn't want him to touch me because I felt violated, his trust had completely vanished.

Grabbing my food, my head motions for him to follow me outside to the backyard where the sun was shining and the pool water was glittering.

We both take a seat on the edge of the pool and dip our feet in, I proceed to eat and he begins to talk.
"Look I came here today to tell you that no matter what, I'm going to love you unconditionally" Nate was the type of person to talk about love whenever he was serious, and really wanting to get something off his chest. He'd tell me how he feels. We dated for about a year until I caught him with my ex best friend Stacey, she'd had it in for me when Nate started noticing me.

All though I never fully intended on dating Nate it kind of just happened. And after spending a year with Nate I still didn't feel like I loved him enough, it still burnt when he cheated but it didn't hurt as much as I thought it would. Guess I expected a little too much.

"I've heard that before, did you love me unconditionally when you were busy hooking up with my 'ex' best friend" I said, picking up a piece of bacon and tried to savour the taste. Before I would throw it up all over Nate from the mental image I was imagining of them kissing.
"Eves! Come on! It was a mistake I told you many times before, she came onto me, you have to believe me!" My fists clenched but I gained coward like powers and managed to hold the anger inside of me.

"Somehow I find it so hard to believe you Nate, you don't realise how shit it was to walk in on my best friend with my lover"

That whole time., I had gone days without sleep, hardly eating, needless to say that I'd gotten very drunk. Mostly the reason was to forget what ever happened with Nate because he was the only person keeping Noah off my mind, Nate told me he loved me a few months into the relationship. I lied and said the same. I thought it was all going to be okay, I thought it was, until he made me see the worst of a relationship. And then had the nerve to tell me he was sorry for what happened.

We sat in silence for a few minutes, and I could hear him quietly sobbing. Is he really crying right now? I look over at him and he had his head in his hands, the light hit Nate's hair perfectly, and his dimples were visible but you could tell he wasn't smiling.
"If I could take it back, I would Eves. I just want you to let me in"

Putting my arm over his shoulder, I bring him in closer to comfort him, I hate seeing people cry. Especially when I'm the reason. "Look just toughen up it'll be fine" rubbing his forearm, he pushes up against me and holds my waist while crying into lap, "I- Love....You, sss-o much" he was hyperventilating which was making him stutter. "Nate, look it's over and done with you can't keep dwelling on the past"

you can't keep dwelling on the past

I kept repeating those words in my mind of what I had said to Nate and realised that I was being a hypocrite,

My whole life revolved on dwelling in my past, Noah was my past. Him and Ty.

But Why couldn't I take some of my own advice?

"How can I not? When I've basically stuffed up my whole future" he looked up at me and his eyes were bloodshot.

"Sometimes you just got to be strong and deal with the actions you made" Nate pulled away from me and we were gazing at each other.

I missed how his eyes glittered in the sunlight. I missed how his hair is gently pushed back and he used to let me play with it, but I miss him, and what we had, our memories. But it can never be that way again, he hurt me and now I was suffering the consequences.
Revenge seemed perfectly fine to me, but I think just not letting him be with me anymore took it's toll pretty well.

Guess, it was a long shot. Should have seen it coming. After a few months. Nate had started taking the pain away but I realised I was letting him in too much, and backed away for a couple of weeks.

Stacey was there for Nate more than I. Wouldn't of blamed her though. I isolate everything from myself, when I get like that.
To me Nate was my temporary happiness. I know, I basically played with him. But I'm heartless. It's in my nature.

After a long morning of packing, Nate stayed and helped, we rested until we had to go and catch the plane to California. It was a scheduled flight so once we finished packing and helping the movers put out things in the truck, they fled and started making their way to California.

Kaye's brothers Max, Jacob and JayJay, are driving our cars to California. Which is lucky because I wasn't willing to drive all the way there and god only knows that Tyler will probably crash and burn from driving such a long distance.

"Ready to go?" Tyler peeked around the corner from where Nate and I were sitting quietly. "Uh yeah" we stood up and Nate looked at me with tears threatening to flood "I'm going to miss you Eves" hugging for that split moment, memories invade my mind and I realised, I'm going to miss Nate too

"I'll come and see you once exams are over I promise!"

He walked me to my car, Max, Kaye and Tyler were all seated somewhere in my beautiful black BMW. And I took a second to breathe in the last air I'll share of this place.
I looked towards a sad looking Nate and his eyes are set on me already. Fuck this boy!
Making me feel guilty about the whole thing.

"I guess I can forgive you" my arms wrap around his neck and we hug one last time before I dragged myself to my car and put the key in the ignition, then listen as my car engine roars into life.

Waving, I get one last glimpse of him he looks so innocent, so vulnerable. He watched the car as it was driving out the street which made me feel more guilty, My phone vibrated in my pocket, but I decided to wait until I got to the airport to take a quick look.

My mind told me to never regret a thing. But right now, I wish I had fixed things with Nate, leaving him there was a big mistake we had so little time to get over it, and I know in some sense I shouldn't forgive him for those past months I spent living in torture, but the guilt was too much. Maybe I did the wrong thing? 
But then maybe it was the start of progress. I hated it but It was Nate's fault. Guilt is my weakness!!