Eyes For Only You

Chapter 16 I Want You

Chapter 16: I Want You

Song: I want you by Fe Fe Dobson

Jalena’s pov

  BUTTERSAUCE!!! I couldn’t sleep… I was lying in my bed, with pillows thrown over my head. I was trying to change the dreamland I was in of the blue-eyed blonde sexiness of a male to famous dancers with me at center stage doing the performance of a lifetime but, noooo. My mind kept going in circles over everything that had happened in the studio. I wanted to laugh and, I wanted to cry. I was shocked, confused and frustrated at my behavior. I have never in my life acted like this and never really had someone to turn me on like that either. I was so hot and bothered. The boy had, had me pressed up against the ballet bar running his beautiful hands down my body and, all I can think about was how good it felt and, how if his brother hadn’t walked in. I would have pushed him up against the bar to do a repeat of what he did to me…  I wonder what he’s thinking, maybe the same things I am. Or maybe he might be regretting what happened… I know one thing for sure, I didn’t… Or maybe he’s calling his girlfriend to break up with her.  That thought made me smile. Was that wrong of me to be like that? I didn’t know and didn’t care, because, the realization of what I was feeling for the boy was astonishing to me. I wanted to deny it though. I moaned into my pillow.  I kept telling myself no, not true, I don’t feel this way for him. ‘Why me, why him, and, most of all why now?’  I couldn’t its to soon. I kept going back and forth with it. I’d deny what I feel, but then I would be all like ‘the boy is mine.’ My mind was going in circles…

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It was around midnight and I still couldn’t sleep.  After tossing and turning for a while, I ended up going to my sister’s room. I saw her curled up in her bed. She always fell asleep like that, like a little girl all sweet and innocent. I crawled in with her. I didn’t want to be alone tonight, because I was scared of my feelings. I couldn’t deny it to myself anymore. I wanted him. Now I just needed my sister to tell me that wanting him was a bad idea and to put my focus back on what’s more important to me and all will be well again… I was so not expecting what she had to say to me…

“Lena?” She said turning over to look at me, after she felt me move a little closer to her.

“Are you ok, what’s wrong? Please don’t tell me you’re sick, and don’t you dare throw up in my bed. I will not be cleaning it up this time.” She sat up and flicked on the light. Her demeanor changed when she got a look at my glossy eyes and facial expression.

“Lena, Lee, Lee what’s wrong talk to me.” She opened her arms and I went into them. My sister was like my best friend and like a second mother. She’s like one of those women that you know are meant to be moms. She was so loving and affectionate. Don’t get me wrong my mom was the best mom ever. She was loving, kind and, raised us both well, but when it came to us being sick, that woman would put herself up in a quarantine lock down. She hated sickness specially the throw upy kind. But not Bree, when I’m sick she would rub my tummy or stay in the room with me till I felt better.

“Something happened over at Justin’s house tonight.” I said taking a deep breath. Her room smelled like her, like wildflowers in the spring.

“Um, baby girl do I need to get mom for this” Because, your scaring me. He didn’t force himself on you did he?” She asked with a panicky edge to her voice.

I raised my head, “No, Bree calm down. He did not rape me…please.” If anything I probably would have raped his ass if I hadn’t come to my senses… “I…we…um kind of made out like kissed a lot.” I said and covered myself under her blankets. She pulled them off me squealing as quietly as she could we didn’t want to wake our parents up.