My Boyfriend's Roommate

Fifteen - Day 4 and 5

Harper

Never have I ever thought of cheating; not with the people I love, yet here I was, face inches away from my boyfriend's bestfriend. Whatever happened to the old Harper who was capable of handling everything? Well, the rational part of Harper flew out the window just seconds before Mike was insanely close.

"Harper," he mumbled, his breath fanning my face. I can still smell his minty breath from earlier, intoxicating me. His eyes shifted to mine and we stared at each other for seconds until my eyes averted to his lips. It looks so tempting with how pinkish and soft its appearance is.

I licked my lower lip and Mike had a sharp intake of breath as he closed his eyes sternly. "Fuck awkwardness." In a split second, his lips met mine. Yung halik niya nakakabaliw at hindi ko ineexpect na magrerespond ako sa mga halik niya. Parang lahat ng doubt at yung consequences ng mga maaaring mangyari ay nawala sa isip ko.

He was kissing me mindlessly with hunger and I reciprocated it with the same intensity. Yung isa niyang kamay ay nasa likod ko habang ang isa ay nasa buhok ko. I also placed mine on his hair, gripping it tightly. I was feeling something very new to me, although I can't seem to put my finger on it.

When I opened my mouth to breathe, his tongue entered mine at nawawalan na ng sense yung mga nangyayari sa paligid ko. I moaned as the kiss deepened. I even heard Mike moaning my name which made me crave for something more. I didn't even realize I was already straddling him; I was feeling something hard on my intimate area. Mike abruptly stopped kissing at tinignan ko siya ng may pagtataka.

Mike groaned. "Harper, you're sitting on my... Damn!" I was alarmed, but I didn't know what he was talking about. My forehead was placed on his at pareho pa kaming naghahabol ng hininga mula sa halikan namin kanina. At nang nag-sink in lahat sa utak ko, halos iuntog ko yung ulo ko sa pader. Agad-agad akong umalis mula sa pagkakaupo ko kay Mike at lumipat sa tabi niya nang nakatitig sa mga kamay ko. I refuse to meet his eyes kasi nagi-guilty ako. Hindi ko naman siya sinisisi kasi kasalanan ko rin naman.

I was fidgeting and torn between going straight to my room to reprimand myself and saying sorry. At dahil ayoko naman maging bastos, magso-sorry na lang ako. Pero hindi pa man ako nakakapagsalita, tumayo na si Mike at dumiretso sa kusina. Dapat ko ba siyang sundan? Baka kasi gusto niyang mapag-isa kaya naupo na lang muna ako sa sofa at pinatay yung TV.

Napahawak na lang ako sa dibdib ko at ramdam na ramdam ko yung bilis ng pagtibok nito. Bakit kapag kay Mike may mga nararamdaman ako na hindi ko ma-explain? Kinakapa ko sa dibdib ko kung may galit ba o regret. Pero wala at kahit gustuhin ko man, hindi ko naman kayang pilitin ang sarili ko.

Nasapo ko na lang yung noo ko nang ma-isip ko si Sky. Paano ko ieexplain lahat ng ito kay Sky? Yes, hindi niya nga malalaman unless isa sa amin ni Mike ang magsasabi sa kanya pero nakaka-guilty kasi. Para akong sinasampal ng konsensya ko. Kung kanina sana ako sinampal edi natuwa pa ako. Ang pinaka weird sa lahat ng tanong na nasa isip ko: Nagustuhan kaya ni Mike yung halik? Was I a bad kisser? Wala naman akong masyadong experience! Wait, natutunan mo pa talaga mag-isip ng mga ganyan Harper?! Ugh! I buried my face on my hands as I think of any possible reason to say para malusutan yung 'kissing scene' namin kanina at yung awkwardness mamaya.