This Selfish Love of Mine

Chapter 13: The shock

ALLY'S P.O.V.

Three days after our last encounter, I received a call from Tita Estelle.

Nasa bahay nila ako ngayon dinning with them.

"So Dad, ano po yung sasabihin niyo sa akin?" Tanong ni Chard sa daddy niya.

Tumingin muna si Tito kay Tita Estelle as if asking permission, He did receive a nod and she grasp his hand as if transferring courage to Tito.

"You two are best friends since birth, right? I know you know each other well."

We just nod and intently listen to what Tito will say.

"Nung bata pa kayo, when we start EMPIRE, Nagkasundo kami ng magulang mo Allyssa, na walang hahati o hihiwalay sa'ming dalawa ng Daddy mo sa EMPIRE."

Yes I know that promise they made. Hanggang sa huli, palalaguin nila ang EMPIRE na magkasama.

"So we, me and your Dad, agreed to let you two, to be wed when your both old enough. And I guess it's now the right time."

Wed?

Wedding?

As in magpapakasal?

Sh*t! WHAT?

SERIOUSLY!?

"The plan for your wedding will be after your college graduation."

What-The-!? Am I just dreaming?

Did I really heard it right?

Magigising na ako di ba?

"I- I don't know" I said. But as I glance at Chard he look at me straight in the eyes.

"Ok."

Natuon lahat ng atensiyon namin kay Chard.

Pumapayag siya?

"Great! Now, it's settled." Pinal na sabi ni Tito.

As Tita clap her hands and said "I'LL MAKE THE GRANDEST WEDDING GOWN FOR YOU ALLY!" She's excited and ecstatic about the wedding. I guess she can now picture out the whole scene!

And I don't feel good about this..

***

"Bakit ka pumayag?" Tanong ko kay Chard. Nasa kotse niya kami ngayon at ihahatid na niya ako sa PRIU.

"Why? Bakit ayaw mo ba?" Balik na tanong niya.

"Kung na-guguilty ka lang sa nangyari noon, Hindi mo naman kailangang gawin 'to!"

"Ginagawa ko lang ang dapat na dati ko pa pinanindigan."

"PERO WALA KA NAMANG DAPAT PANINDIGAN! YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO THIS!"

"BUT I WILL. I'M GONNA MARRY YOU! END OF DISCUSSION."

I sigh in resignation.

I'm doomed!

I don't want a loveless marriage.

Kaya nga lumayo na lang ako noon di ba? Natanggap ko na, na hindi niya ako mamahalin. TAPOS NGAYON MAGPAPAKASAL KAMI?

ANO 'TO? LOKOHAN?

ARGGHH!

***

WHAT!? YOUR MARRYING RICHARD ELEZARDE?

OMYGOSH! A.! ARE YOU INSANE!? MATAPOS NG LAHAT NG GINAWA NIYANG PAGTULAK SA'YO PALAYO NOON, NGAYON PUMAYAG SIYA SA KASUNDUAN NG MAGULANG NIYO, NA MAGPAKASAL!?

"Yun na nga Kristy eh! I don't know kung bakit siya pumayag.
I frustratedly slump down the couch.

Hindi ko talaga maintindihan kung bakit siya pumayag.

***

CHARD'S P.O.V.

After Allyssa left, Yes I am remorseful about what happened.

That's the biggest blulsiht I've ever done! And it haunted me since that day.

When I woke up after that night, I thought it was just a dream but seeing a bloodstain in the mattress, I know I'm the biggest jerk for screwing my best friend because I'm miserable!

I can still remember how my lungs seems to loose air as I run to their house asking Ate Tasia where she is.

My blood seems to stop circulating when she told me that Ally just left 10 mins ago carrying a luggage off to somewhere.

But the reason she said afterwards made me gasping for air "Di niya po matanggap na wala na si Mam at Sir dahil sa aksidente kaya sabi niya, aalis siya at hindi niya alam kung kailan siya uuwi. Magpapakalayo - layo daw muna siya. Tinawagan na nga lang niya si Sir Jared para ayusin lahat sa burol at libing. Kaawa - awa nga si Allyssa nang umalis, dama mo yung bigat ng dinadala niya kung nakita mo lang siya."

I run back to our house and drive the car to the hospital. But I didn't see her there. Si Kuya Jared ang naabutan ko dun pero hindi daw pumunta si Ally sa hospital.

Since then, My conscience keeps bothering me. Dinagdagan ko pa yung sakit na nararamdam ni Ally. I really felt guilty. To the point na sinundan ko siya sa Korea. Nalaman ko private investigator na pumunta siya ng South Korea kasama yung koreanong pumalit sa pwesto ko bilang bestfriend niya nang lumipat ako ng school.

Pero nang makarating ako sa bahay nung Jiyong, wala na si Ally doon. At kahit lumuhod pa ako, hindi niya sinabi kung saan pumunta si Ally. Naka-isang sapak pa nga yun sa mukha ko eh. Sinabi ng private investigator na nasa Pilipinas na ulit si Ally, kaya naman umuwi na ako, pero yun na ang huling report na nakuha ko tungkol sa where abouts ni Ally.

I focused on my studies. I drown myself on studying to distract myself from thinking about everything that happened to Ally.

If I wasn't been that stupid lovesick fool, I'll be the one to take care of Ally. Ako dapat ang kasama niya. Ako na best friend niya ang karamay niya sa lungkot na pinagdaraanan niya. But I threw everything.

I'm the biggest jerk for abandoning the girl who did everything for me.

To push away the only girl who stays by my side.

To hurt the girl who love me so much.

I felt the guilt and the thought of making her comeback and doing everything just to make things right always kicks in me that it drives me nuts.

So I promised myself, when we meet again, I swear, I'll make things straight and never let her go again.

And what if I got her pregnant because of the most stupid thing I did to her? That's another thought which haunts me more that drives me to become a better person. I work hard and study harder so if ever that happens, when we see each other again, I have something to be proud of. While studying, I also work for the company. Where I gained experience that made my studies easier to understand.

I did everything I do, after that night I screwed everything up, for Ally. To be a better person for Ally. To be a better man she deserves. To be worthy of her love.