Marty's POV
What just happened? I thought to myself that night. Did Jenni and I just really break up? I didn't really want to. but I mean if she was really kissing that guy earlier I feel like we had to. I don't know what to do. I feel so lost and confused. Everything just happened so fast.
I was with her just this morning. It had to of been right before class started and after I had left her to get to my own class. Jennifer said that she saw her and took a picture. I know since her and I broke up it's not been a walk in the park for her. No matter what she says now she still loves me.
I still remember the days before I met Jenni. That day after I got rejected for the school dance she told me she loved me. I sigh. It was so easy back then. Then Jenni came into my life like a riptide in the ocean. I take my hands and put them on my face, groaning. So far, I haven't told anyone about our breakup. I don't think I will for a while. I just really want to clear my head first.
I move my hands away from my face. I turn over and grab the picture from my bedside table that Jenni dropped at her feet before leaving. It was a little damaged from where Jenni had crumpled it, but it was still in tact. I stare at it longingly. It she was going to be kissing anyone it should be me in that picture, not that guy. I've never even seen that guy before. Must be one of the older guys.
I look at the picture closer. Man, why does it have to be Jenni? I thought she loved me. I thought she cared about me. I look at the side of her head. Wait a minute. Can it be? It's hard to see, but I see an earring poking out from her hair in the picture. Jenni didn't have earrings on today. This isn't Jenni. Jennifer. Why did she lie to me like that? I was perfectly happy with Jenni and- I pause for a moment. Oh, now I see. She did this out of jealousy. That has to be the reason why. There's no other reason I can think of.
Awe shit! I feel like a horrible boyfriend. I should have known. I should have believed her when she told me it wasn't her. Why? Why did I believe my ex girlfriend over my girlfriend? I want to get back at Jennifer for breaking us up, but the best way to do so is to act like it doesn't affect us. That is if she'll take me back. I could lose her over one stupid mistake and it'll all be my fault. I need to talk to her. I need to call her and apologize right now. I hope she forgives me and maybe, just maybe, she'll still be mine.
I scramble up into a sitting position and snatched the phone from the bedside table. I take the phone off the receiver and dial her number. The phone rings and rings, but there's no answer. There's two possibilities of why no one answered. One, they've went out somewhere or two, she's ignoring me. I hope it's not the latter. I guess I'm going to have to go straight over to her house in the morning to talk to her. I'd rather talk to her in person anyways. At least then she wouldn't be able to hang up on me and I'd have a better chance of talking to her.
I put the phone back on the bedside table. I roll over and get under the covers. I need to get some sleep, but with everything going on that's going to be hard. I lie there and stare up at the ceiling. Please, please forgive me Jenni. Even if I haven't said it out loud, I love you so much. Don't leave me Jen, please. Eventually, I fall into a restless sleep.
