Marty's POV
It's been a week since Jenni and I kissed in the corner at school. I have decided that I will talk to Jennifer about our relationship this weekend. I'm ready to move on. I'm just not happy with her anymore like I used to be. Eventually when I figure out how, I want to ask Jenni to be mine. I really feel like we have something together, something that me and Jennifer didn't.
Jenni and I walked along town square after we got out of school. I told her to take a seat on the bench before we left. I offered to give her a ride home after school so she didn't have to walk. The tires on her bike needed some more air. So this morning she walked herself to school.
She sat like most people would on a bench. Me on the other hand, I decided to sit on the back. I put my hand on her shoulder and gently started to rub it. I love her beautiful eyes. I love staring into them. I could stay lost in them forever. I couldn't help but lean in. But first, I looked around. So far I didn't see anybody recognizable that knew us.
She looks at me with those eyes of hers. I know we shouldn't be doing anything out here, but the people around right now didn't know us so that's why I figured it would be okay. I gave her the look she couldn't resist. Jenni gave in and let me kiss her like I wanted. I got lost in the kiss and so did she. It was the best one yet.
Moments later, I felt as if there were someone standing behind me. I shook it off thinking that was just my imagination. I continued kissing Jenni. The one person I never thought I would love like this. I didn't even feel this kind of love with Jennifer. The next thing I know, I feel something pulling at the collar of my shirt. The feeling tightens and I pull away seeing the last person I expected to see. Jennifer.
What is she doing here? I thought she had to leave right after school. At least that's what she told me when we talked earlier. Instead of talking to me right there in front of Jenni, which in a way I'm glad she didn't do, she pulled me by a tree across from the bench. "Marty, what do you think you're doing?" She shouts at me. "I, I can explain." I try to reason with her. "No, you listen to me Marty." I stay silent knowing that now there's no way to get through to her. "You, you lied to me Marty. You said that there was nothing going on between you two. But apparently there is. I thought I could trust your word. I wanted to believe that things were getting better. I hoped that all your stress was due to school, stress at home, and for our fighting together. To think that you just used me. Was that all I was to you, just a pretty face? No, don't answer that. Why, why did you do this to me? I thought we were going to have a future together. I want answers and I want them now Marty." Jennifer rants. Hopefully no one, including Jenni, is in earshot of this.
This is why I wanted to talk to her about this later. Besides, I didn't want her to find out this way. I was never actually trying to cheat on her. Jenni and I weren't kissing because we were a couple, we were doing it out of curiosity, a spur of the moment type of thing. I want Jennifer to have better and I want her to be happy at the same time. I'm just not the guy for the part anymore.
At one point in time I hoped that I was. I'm sorry Jennifer, I really am. Hopefully you'll want to listen long enough to hear me out. "Jennifer look, I never wanted to hurt you nor did I want you to find out this way. I was going to talk to you about us this weekend, but you caught the wrong end of the story before I could tell you." I start off. "Then what end was I supposed to catch?" She scoffs. "Jen, me and Jenni aren't even together. We're still just friends. That kiss you saw was just a spur of the moment thing. I was just going to talk to you about this to see your opinion, but now I'm sure it's what I really want. I don't think we should be together anymore. We're always fighting and have trouble getting along. I really don't know what happened between us. I feel like we just grew apart as a couple. I really do care about you. I always have and I always will. I think it's time that we move on though. There's someone out there better for you than me. In the beginning I did hope it was me, but now I realize that it's not. I promise that everything will be okay in time." I let out. She just stares at me with her pretty green eyes. They start to well up with tears.
I don't want her to cry. I never wanted to see her or make her cry. I've always just wanted her to understand how I felt. She's done so much for me. She tries to keep me a good person and out of harm's way. If she's okay with it, I'd still like to be friends. I'm not that type of person. Even if it doesn't work out romantically, some people are just better off friends. "If you want, we can still be friends. Everything can be like it was before we started dating." I smile warmly at her. She doesn't answer. Instead, she just walks away from me. That's not exactly how I wanted this to turn out. I wonder if it would still have been the same result had she not seen me kissing Jenni.
I know everything happens for a reason, but sometimes I don't like how it happens. I wish they could happen in a more peaceful way. Everyone has a different story, but every character's part in the story has to end at some point if they're not part of the ending. In the end, Jennifer just wasn't part of the ending in my story anymore.
I did get back to Jenni. I told her what happened. She hugged me and held me close, showing her sympathy. I told her that everything was okay and that it will get better in the future. Time heals all wounds, despite some cuts becoming scars. Yet those scars remind us of who we are and what we are today.
Even though she's not the one that got hurt in all of this, she still felt the need to be upset. I reassured her that none of it was her fault. The way Doc's been acting lately, it's like he's known all along. Maybe at first he didn't, but now he does.
I never thought that Jennifer and I would break up this way if we ever did. That's the only thing that pains me. That and the look on her face when she left. She probably hates me right now. I wonder if she'll ever get over it. I know she'll get over the break up part and be able to find someone else someday, but I know she'll be mad at me for what feels like forever.
When I had finally calmed Jenni down, I took her back home as promised. Eventually I got it through to her that she was not at fault. She said that she understood, but she still couldn't help but feel bad. I smiled at her and told her that I understood. She smiled back at me, gave me a short little wave, and turned to go inside.
Before she could get out of arm's reach, I pulled her back to me. I held her close in my arms and lightly squeezed. I pulled my face away just slightly and gave her a small kiss on the cheek. I caught the blush on her cheeks and smiled to myself. We said our goodbyes one last time, smiles on both of our faces. I reluctantly let her go and then I was off.
