Adison's POV:
Sunlight rushes in shawn's dorm as if it's being poured from the sky, making me squint slightly.
God what happened last night? I think to myself as I open my eyes to their full extent, taking in where I am and the clues to what I know I did, the headache from the alcohol pounding my head.
I'm facing shawn, in his bed, tucked away in his chest with his plump lips resting on my forehead with light snores coming from them. We both lay naked under his white duvet, causing me to smile the slightest.
Memories from everything we did last night, every kiss we endured, comes rushing to my mind. All of it was so beautiful, so romantic, everything I'd want being intimate with shawn to be.
I suddenly shudder, not out of content but of fear, did we use protection? I was planning on getting more birth control from the doctor but it slipped my mind, and if I'm being honest I didn't think I'd start talking to such a beautiful brunette who goes by the name Shawn, and end up drinking more than half a bottle between the two of us in one study session.
"Damn it," I mumble to myself, not being able to find my happy place anymore in my head. Being in his arms feels safe and protecting, but the constant worry of pregnancy makes me want to cry.
I'm too young, I'm not ready, and neither is he. Hell I just met the guy...
"Shawn?" I shake him in a slight panic, heavy tears brimming my water line as i prop myself up by my elbow, "shawn wake up," I grip his bicep again shaking him a little harder.
"Hmm?" He hums, his eyes fluttering open and then slowly closing again from the overwhelming feeling of being tired. I close my eyes and breathe really heavy, causing him to open his eyes again but this time with more concern.
"Adison what's wrong?" He pulls me back into his chest, almost making me forget the gut wrenching worry that has made a home in my head.
"Did you use protection?"I spit it out, wanting to laugh at myself because usually after couples do something like this they're all cuddly and lovey, talking about how much they love each other, not having the poor girl worry if she's pregnant or not.
His eyebrows furrow, trying to remember the fuzzy, yet beautiful details of last night.
"B-babygirl I don't remember," His voice goes higher out of the same worry I possess, causing me to sigh loudly.
I unwrap his arms from around me, reaching over at the foot of the bed for my crumpled t-shirt, a million thoughts running through my head.
"Shawn I c-cant get pregnant, I just can't." I sit on the edge of his warm and comfortable bed, burying my face in my hands wishing I could push it from my mind.
Now he's the one with his elbows holding his weight staring at me with intense brown eyes, "birth control? I thought you had it."
Shawn's not trying to show it, but I know he's terrified, as terrified as me which only makes my state of mind worse. I pull on the Jean shorts not far from the bed, trying to cover up so I can look in the trash and around the room to see if he used a condom or not and take a shower.
"I forgot to pick some up from the doctors," I glance back at him, "so no I didn't take any."
He falls back into the pillows in defeat, trying harder than ever to concentrate and remember. He leans over the side of the bed and sifts through the trash in search of the protection. Without noticing, a few tears slip from my eyes, me only knowing they were there by the salty taste as they made their way into my mouth. Shawn flops back on his elbow in defeat, not finding anything.
"Hey hey," he scoots his way over, laying a hand comfortingly on my back trying to soothe me, the two of us sitting on the side of the bed, "don't cry it'll be okay, who knows maybe you're not pregnant. Adison i'm sorry we shouldn't have done that, we drank a lot." His hand makes its way to my cheek, Shawn's thumb wiping away other tears that I couldn't control from falling.
"And if I am?"I collapse into his shoulder, him instantly bringing his arms up to hug me, as if he could hug all the worries away. With his arms, I guess he could.
"Then I'm not going anywhere."
________________________________________~I have this perfect plan for this book and wtf shawn's so cute
~Leah
