With Love, Silvia. [✔️]

Chapter 16 Not Hungry

   We all sit in the little hospital room in silence. News came, and it was bad. Rodger was going to go under surgery and get his lung removed. This wasn't uncommon, lots of people survived with one lung but sports would be a lot harder for him now. School was just a big mess. Iris and I have stuck together and tried to avoid Anika's mean comments. But every word hurts. Mom told me that I am rubber and the bullies are glue. Whatever they do to me will bounce off of me and stick to them. But It's hard to live by that now.

   I returned to my old habits. I go to the coffee shop ever other day, I just had to get out of that hospital. Away from my problems. As much as I tried to push everything aside, I knew I was only making things worse. When I wasn't at the coffee shop, I was at Iris's house or something.  Erica literally banned me from going anywhere for the next 3 days. School included.

  I tried to hold myself together, but nothing worked. My life was a mess. My mom's dead, my dad is missing, my new house was burned down, I was being bullied, and Rodger was in a bad condition.

   After some investigation, we found that we had a gas leak which was highly flammable and burned up the whole house. However no one knew why Rodger was downstairs in the first place. Everyone said that it was just a bad coincidence.

  Everything inside me had rebuilt myself, and now it was breaking down. I thought I was strong, I thought I was brave, but I couldn't do it anymore. I was sick of my behavior I wanted a change. But I felt like I was trapped with no one.

  "Silvia, why aren't you eating?" Erica asked me one night at the hospital. It was our 2 week there and I longed for some more decent food.

  "Not hungry." I responded. She asked the same question every dinner, and I responded in the same way.

  'Not Hungry'

  A doctor bursts through the door interrupting my thoughts and makes Erica sign a series of paper work again and she cries as she walks down the hall to talk to Rodger.

  Emma managed to stay strong and I admired her for that. She cared for her siblings and I felt lousy that I wasn't there for her considering I was gone most of the time.

I started to feel the same way about dinner and life. I didn't want to do this anymore. Just like not wanting to eat.

'Not Hungry.'

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Author's note:

Hi!!!!! Sorry about that super short and emotional chapter. I'm trying to build up to the climax so I can get some more exciting chapters going. Sorry if I bored you half to death! I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving!

- alexa_writes