Make Me Better

Chapter 1

I woke up feeling a familiar weight on my stomach, sitting up slightly making Bear slide off my stomach and into my lap. "You've got to stop sleeping on my stomach, Bear" I stated, petting him gently. Bear stood up in my lap, he stretched his front legs in front of him poking his butt in the air and yawned. It was another Saturday morning, I decided to just stay in bed and lounge around at home. I reached for the remote on my nightstand, I flipped through the channels trying to find something to watch and settled on Boomerang for Saturday morning cartoons. Bear walked to the other side of the bed, climbing on the pillow and laid on it. I smiled at him, petting the top of his little head and yawned. I moved the blanket off of me exposing my legs and got out of the bed. I went to the kitchen going in the bottom cabinet by the stove where Bear's dog food was and shoveled some into his blue doggy bowl. "Come eat your breakfast, Bear" I called, shaking his bowl to make the food rattle. I could hear his little paws patting on the wooden floors of the apartment as he ran to the kitchen. I opened the fridge grabbing a cup of Yoplait yogurt, turning to get a spoon out of the dish rack and walked back to my room. I climbed in my bed taking the little cover off the yogurt cup, watching, 'Wyle Coyote' and eating my yogurt. I heard Bear barking, I sat my yogurt on my nightstand climbing out of bed and walked out of my room. "Bear, eat" I ordered, walking to the front door. He continued to bark, I looked at him snapping my fingers and he ran to the kitchen. I looked through the peephole seeing Cat holding a cupholder with two cups and I smiled. I unlocked the door, opening it and letting her in. "Morning, babycakes. I brought you a caramel mocha latte just how you like" said Cat, sitting the cupholder on the coffee table. "Aww, thank you babes" I bubbled, smiling. She pulled a chair out from the dining table taking a seat and grabbed her cup to take a sip. "What you got planned today?" she asked, sitting the cup down. "Nothing, today is lazy Saturday" I replied, sitting on the couch. Cat got up from the table taking the other cup out of the cupholder with her cup in her other hand as she walked to the couch and handed me the latte. "Cool, wanna watch a movie tonight?" questioned Cat, sitting on the couch next to me. I nodded, smiling as I lifted the cup to my lips and took a sip of the latte; my stomach felt warm as I drank the beverage. "Imma make you some breakfast" She stated, sitting her drink on the table and getting up. Cat went into my kitchen, Bear barked happily jumping on her legs and wagging his curled tail. "Hey, little guy. Woah, your getting so big" cooed Cat, picking Bear up. I watched as she held him, Bear filled with excitment wiggled in her arms trying to lick her face and I smiled contently. Cat put him back on the floor, washing her hands and opened the fridge to see what she could throw together. "You know Bear only gets that excited with you...he likes Krystal but he doesn't jump for joy like he does with you" I addressed. She laughed pulling out the carton of eggs, "Well, I'm touched". I watched her back facing me as she stood in front of the stove, I took a deep breath and bit my bottom lip. It's been a year since that kiss happened, we've never discussed it and she never explained. At first I thought we should leave it alone but lately I've been thinking about it more and more. "Cataleya, can I ask you something?" I asked, anxiety welling up in my chest. I could see her stiffen once I called her by her actual name but she nodded anyway and I sighed. "You remember the night you brought Bear...on my 19th birthday?" I questioned. "Y-Yeah" She stammered. "That kiss...I mean I know I didn't break it up or anything but...that night you just up and left. You didn't say anything" I muttered, feeling nervous. Cat continued to cook without the slightest reaction and I waited for it. "I didn't mean to" answered Cat, she scrapped eggs onto a plate. I sort of felt disappointed, I guess I expected there to be more than her not meaning to kiss me. Cat brought me the plate, I took it smiling weakly and began to eat. "I don't want to complicate things" admitted Cat. I could respect that, Jordan could be very jealous and possessive. I feared if Cat and I ever became awkward then Jordan will notice it; He'd probably make me stay away from her. I left the subject alone, I scooted closer to her resting my head on her shoulder as she put her arm around me. I grabbed the remote off the coffee table, switching the channel to Boomerang and started watching Bugs Bunny. I welcomed the silence just a peaceful moment with her; No drama. The warmth from her body comforted me, I snuggled closer to her closing my eyes and inhaled the sweet scent of her Axe. Slowly I wrapped around her waist attempting to pull myself closer to her, I nuzzled my face into the side of her neck feeling her breath tickle my face lightly as she breathed. "You tired, sweeite?" asked Cat, rubbing her hand up and down my side. I nodded keeping my eyes shut, the silence fell back in place as I began to drift to sleep.
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I shuddered feeling her hand caress my side gently, I parted my lips slightly bring my mouth closer to her neck and kissed lightly. Almost instantly I could feel Cat tense up, I paused waiting to see if she'd push me away and when she made no move to do so I continued to kiss her neck. I climbed in her lap, I straddled her and sat up to look into her big hazel-eyes. I cupped her face in both hands, leaning down making our lips connect and our breath mingled. Our lips moved together in unison as I felt her hands creep up my thighs and gripping my hips. Cat's hands traveled up my hips lifting my T-shirt exposing my stomach, she rubbed her soft, warm hands under my shirt moving them slowly up and held my sides. She pushed me back slightly still holding my sides as she broke our kiss and stared into my eyes. "I can't" she muttered, her eyes saddened. "I-I want this" I replied, resting my hands on her shoulders. Cat shook her head lifting me up out of her lap and moved me to sit on the couch. " I just can't, Anaya" retorted Cat, getting off the couch. "Please, Cataleya please" I whimpered, feeling my tears well up in my eyes. She turned to me, pushing me back on the couch I flinched laid back and hitting my head on the arm-rest of the couch. Cat spread my legs, leaning down close to my face locking her lips with mine as I grinded against her and moaned into the kiss. She slide her hands under my shirt cupping my breast, I could feel my bra being lifted up as her hands massaged my titties and I bit her bottom lip. Cat grunted half from pain and half from pleasure as she broke the kiss. She lifted my shirt, she made eye contact with me as she bent down sucking on my right nipple whil she massaged the other with her hand and pressed her knee between my legs. I moaned feeling myself getting wet as I grind against her knee, Cat kissed down my stomach I could feel the anxiety build up as she went lower and lower. She grabbed the waistband of my pajama shorts with his teeth, pulling them down to my knees then using her hands to pull my panties down and leaned down kissing my belly button. I moaned with anticipation, she slowly went down I could feel her breath against my inner thighs teasing me...
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"Ana?"
I woke up feeling someone gently shake me, I opened my eyes seeing Cat leaned over me with a concerned look on her face. "Are you ok?" asked Cat, furrowing her brows. I exhaled heavily, smacked my lips and groaned in frustration. "You were...ummm, moaning in your sleep" She added. "How long have I been sleep?" I asked, disorientated. "An hour...Are you ok?" answered Cat, kneeling by the side of the couch in front of me, " Let's get you in bed". I sat up, not really recalling when I laid down; Sitting up, I lifted myself off the couch and stumbled to my bedroom still half sleep. I flopped down in my bed not bothering to cover myself with the blanket as I heard Cat's footsteps come in behind me and I heard her giggle. I rolled over on my back to see her close the bedroom door, she began to pull her blue-collared shirt over her head exposing her fit, athletic body and a black Nike sports bra. Her khaki pants hung off her hips showing the Hanes waistband of her boxers, I watched as she unzipped her pants and allowed them to drop to the floor. Cat was only in her dark, blue pinstripped boxers and black Nike bra. She turned catching me looking at her, she smirked almost as if she had purposely teased me before she walked to the other side of the bed and climbed in under the blanket. Cat rolled over to her side to look at me and smiled, "Get in the cover, Ana". I obediently sat up pulling the cover back and slipping underneath as I cuddled closer to her stealing her body heat. "For as long as I can remember you've always slept under me...sometimes it feels strange when your not under me" admitted Cat, putting her arm under my head and pulling me closer. "...Your always so warm" I muttered smiling softly. I glanced at Cat seeing smething shine in her eyes; Not the usual affection but something bitter, jealousy. "Do you sleep with Jordan like this?" She asked. I shook my head, "He doesn't cuddle with me...he always smells like cigarettes and beer". Cat seemed content with my answer, she pulled me closer and I could feel her breathing gently. "He doesn't feel like you...Your always so warm...you smell like baby powder with a hint of Gain and mothball. Such a homely smell, relaxing and comforting" I uttered, rubbing my hand across her stomach, "I remember the smell of your house when we were little and I stayed the night. We shared a bed, I was afraid of the dark and you checked the closet. Then you crawled in bed next to me pulling me close to you...I could smell the Gain your Dad washed your clothes with...The baby powder you wear and the mothballs your Dad would throw in your closet had sunk into your clothes". I cuddled closer to her, She closed her eyes as a smile graced her face and I rested my head on her chest. "So homely...comforting and safe. That's what I thought that night when you held me...I thought...There is no safer place I'd rather be than here" I whispered, my eyes drifting shut. "My room?" asked Cat, sleep evident in her voice. I shook my head lightly, dosing off slowly, "...Y-Your arms". My eyes drifted shut, I could no longer fight sleep as I dosed off and wondered what events would tomorrow hold; what could the future hold?