Make Me Better

Chapter 2

I was awoken by a small distant barking, I continued to lay in Cat's arms even after hearing the footsteps coming to my room. I picked over the blankets to see Jordan walking in, my heart froze with terror as I quickly tired to pretend I was sleep. His eyes darkened with anger, I could feel my body tremble and it must've woken Cat up because I felt her move around. "W-What's wrong?" Asked Cat in a groggy voice. "What is this?" Stated Jordan, pointing at Cat, "I leave for a few days and you got this bitch in bed". I sat up quickly, shaking my head, "N-no baby...we..umm, watched a movie and fell asleep". "Don't talk to her like that" growled Cat, glaring at him. Jordan walked to the foot of the bed, he grabbed the blanket and snatched it off us. I gasped, I pulled my legs to my chest and hung my head low. "You think I'm stupid, don't you?" He hissed, glaring at me. I could feel the anger burning into me with just a single glare, my heart pounder in my chest with fear and uncertainty. "Look, we didn't do nothing. I came over, we chilled and watched a movie. We fell asleep, that's all" explained Cat, rolling her eyes. She didn't feel what I felt; She wasn't afraid of Jordan like I was. "Get out" He barked, "NOW". Cat glared harder, shaking her head and put her arm in front of me sort of like an attempt to protect me. "I'm not leaving her with you" she spat, saying 'You' harshly. "Let me fucking talk to my girlfriend" claimed Jordan, taking a deep breath. I was terrified, I didn't want Cat to know how scared I was and I didn't want him to see it. "You can talk to her now while I'm right here" said Cat. "Anaya" stated Jordan, getting my attention, "Tell your friend to leave us alone". "She's not gonna do that, I'm her bestfriend. We grew-" she started but I interrupted. "Cat, please leave us alone...for a little bit. I'll call you to come back, promise" I uttered, hanging my head again. Cat looked shocked and hurt all in one. I felt a sharp pain in my chest watching her get up, she grabbed her clothes pulling her shirt over her head and walked out the room with her pants on her arm. The ping of sadness was quickly replaced with fear once the front door closed and Jordan slammed my bedroom door. "I tell you over and over again, Anaya. You just don't listen" He jeered, glaring at me. He walked around to the side of the bed where Cat was laying, he stood there with his hands behind his back and his lips curled into a smirk. Jordan reached out grabbing me by my hair and snatched me out of the bed; I was startled at the sudden attack I couldn't scream in time. He tossed me down to the wooden bedroom floor with a loud thud, I whimpered feeling my body collide with the solid wood and he laughed. "I try with you, Anaya. I really do but you fucking push me" He continued, "You just don't learn lessons easily". Jordan kicked me in my side, I gasped feeling all the air escape my body and cried. "Think your gonna cheat on me with a bitch!" Howled Jordan, kicking me repeatedly. "I w-wasn't cheating...I promise" I cried, holding my side. He squatted next to me gripping my hair and pulled my head up, "Your not getting away with this". Jordan's eyes were black almost, completely evil as he punched me in the face twice and threw my head down. I could hear the clinking of his belt buckle, I sat up crying trying to crawl towards the door and hopefully get up to run. "Nope, come here" ordered Jordan, grabbing me by my hair again. He pulled me up getting me to stand on my feet and let my hair go. My legs felt weak, I groaned feeling the pain surge throughout my entire body just as Jordan connected a punch to my stomach and I fell back on the bed. "Please...please stop!" I bawled, holding my stomach, "Please Jordan, I'm yours. I-I wouldn't cheat". He slide his belt out of his loops tossing it and the buckle thudded on the floor. Jordan slid his pants down slightly, opening the hole of his boxers and pulling his penis out. I cried harder feeling my body shake as my heart pounded, I tried to move away but he grabbed my legs tugging me back down and grabbed the waistband of my sleeping shorts. I fought against him trying to keep my shorts up, he looked inflamed as he brought his hand up to my neck and gripped my throat tightly. "She makes you wet doesn't she...the way she fucking holds you, talks to you...she just wants to fuck you" He hissed, tightening his grip. I moved my hand from my shorts to grab his hand and pull his arm hoping to get him off of me. "You stupid bitch, I'll show you" threatened Jordan, snatching my shorts off. I felt my head spinning, everything was getting hazy but he released me and torn my panties off. Although I've been with Jordan for 5 years we have never had sex before; I was saving myself for when I got married. I just laid there crying, my body trembled with fear as Jordan climbed on top of me and felt his tip against me. He was much bigger than I was; I've never noticed it before until he towered over me like this. His eyes threatened me, I cry silently as he held me down with his body and pushed inside me. The pain was unbearable, I screamed feeling him stretch my vagina and tried to push him away. Jordan continued going in and out; Moaning, enjoying himself. I could hear Bear barking and clawing at the door; I just laid there crying. I had become even more broken than ever, I closed my eyes tightly with my hands still pushing against his chest and tears falling from my eyes. I tried to think of something else; anything to distract myself from this undeniable pain. I pictured Cat when we were little at our first sleep over together, we were eating cotton candy watching Xmen and playing on her new tablet. I started to cry harder seeing her face in the darkness of my eyelids, I tried to focus on Bear and the first night I got him. I could still hear him barking and clawing at the door hysterically. Jordan kissed my lips roughly, I groaned feeling him push deeper and his hands tightened on my waist. He started to suck on my bottom lip before he sunk his teeth in my lip and I screamed but it was muffled. Jordan dug his hips into mine, I whimpered with pain cringing and trying to push away. It felt like hours had went by, my eyes were sore and probably red. I could feel a thick liquid dripping between my legs, he didn't hesitate or pause; he continued pushing himself against me and grinding into me. "P-please...s-stop!" I bleated. Jordan paused looking down at me on briefly before continuing and grunting as he shot his load inside of me. He pulled out, his eyes widened as he looked down and quickly picked my shorts up from the floor. Jordan used my shorts to wipe his penis off and threw them at me. "Clean this shit up" He ordered, fixing his clothes. He walked to my room door opening it, I laid on my side pulling my legs close and curled up in the fetal position. Bear jumped in the bed whimpering, he licked my face and bumped my forehead lightly with his nose. I cried, I pulled Bear close to me nuzzling my face into his thick fur as he cuddled against me and I cried into his fur. I felt empty laying there naked feeling broken and exposed. After a few minutes of laying in bed crying on Bear, I attempted to sit up feeling pain shoot throughout my body and I dragged myself out of bed. I gasped once I noticed the blood stain on the sheets, my legs gave out making me drop down to the floor with a loud thud making Bear jump up and run to me. My back felt tight, my legs were wobbly and sore. It hurt to breathe in, I couldn't move my arms too much because then my sides would hurt badly. I pushed myself off the ground to stand on my feet and stumbled out the room. I could hear Bear's footsteps behind me, I stopped in the livingroom leaning on the couch and pulled my shirt over my head; wincing in pain. I dropped it on the floor, pushing myself to stand up off the couch and continued to the bathroom. I went in going to the shower, turning the knob for the hot water and closed the door. I got in the shower slowly sitting down under the water and closed my eyes; Not sure if it was water or tears coming down my face. All I could see was Jordan on top of me with those dark eyes and a malicious smile on his face; I shuddered with fear. I thought about calling Cat back but I couldn't at least not anymore. I felt like nothing would stop this pain and no one could make it go away. I got out the shower without even bothering to wrap a towel around me, I limped out of the bathroom going back to my room and snatched the sheets off of the bed. I threw them down on the floor, I choked back more tears as I looked around the room seeing pictures of Jordan and I hanging on the wall. I screamed in heartache going around the room snatching the pictures down and throwing them on the floor. I picked up a picture of us at prom off the nightstand, I looked at it and felt sadness engulf me as I threw it directly at the mirror on the closet door. The loud clash startled me, I fell to my knees crying and muttered to myself, 'I hate him'. I crawled over to the closet grabbing a shard of glass, Bear sat by my side with his head tilted side ways and whimpered. I gripped the glass tightly in my hand feeling it cut into my skin and the blood dripped from my hand onto the floor. I threw the glass down, I got up off the floor and laid in the bed. I curled my naked body into the fetal position, the sun went down leaving my room in complete darkness and I closed my eyes tightly in an attempt to sleep. I felt one stray tears fall down my cheek as I slowly drifted into the darkness of sleep; terrified tonight of what I may see.