As a i grew up i never had to many friends. I was a bit of a troubled child because i was bullied. Being the kid i was, i was a bit over weight and a bit nerdy. I grew up knowing somethings about the lgbtq+ and i didn't mind it one bit. In all honesty i thought it was cool that people could have other feelings for the same sex. I never encountered it too much because everyone seemed to avoid it.
From 5th-8th grade i started experiencing a strange feeling. I started to be more and more attracted to women's clothing. With this feeling i began to look up videos of other males transforming themselves from male to female with make up and clothes. I was so astounded by it because i thought of how i wished i could have done that so many times. Watching all these videos made me want to dress myself and to do so i would use my own mother's dresses. This gave me such an amazing feeling when i would wear them because i never knew how it would actually feel to wear such a piece of clothing.
When my parents and sister were gone i would go into my parents room and watch more and more videos about the other males "transforming" themselves into females and i would wear the same dress over and over again. It would make me feel so happy inside.
Eventually i found out about actual transgender people and at the time i was so surprised because as a kid i only knew about "crossdressers." Around the beginning of freshman year is when i finally decided that i am transgender.
I then thought to myself..... This is only the beginning.
