Hey guys, so. It's been quite some time. Right... so where do I start....
Ok, so to begin with, Hi, my name is Mark. The alternative to myself. I haven't really identified myself as Marlene in quite some time. Now yes that definitely makes a change to this. And I get that it is probably out of line to say such a thing, but it's how it is. So this is me. My life isn't the best as all of you have read. It's been about 6 months since the last time I wrote in here. So this will be a major catch up to what has been going on in both mine and Marlene's life.
So, to begin with, we are officially 18. We have also officially graduated high school. This was big for us as we kind of just finished the worst 4 years of our life.
So I'll be honest, these past 6 months have been tough. School got more ridiculous, I got involved in more drama, and I lost my marbles towards the end of the school year. Right sooooo. To begin with the drama.
Drama was I guess the one thing I avoided. During the last few months of school I got involved in some stuff I shouldn't have and ended up losing a friend because of it. I wish it was something that didn't do and still had them with me. Also, I had an official job for a while unlike that construction job. I worked at "Fire House Subs" for a couple months. This was also where more drama started to happen. I got to close to one of my ex coworkers and it created drama when I was offered shift lead even though it had only been my 3rd week in and she had been working there for much longer. Anyways I got fired about my 6th week in for other reasons, but I assume she make accusations which in turn got me fired.
Other drama I was involved in was with this girl I used to have a big thing for. She was very beautiful and intelligent but things didn't work out. At one point she started using me for sexual pleasures and I found out. I had realized that she was toying with my heart so we stopped talking. Eventually she started talking to me again but this time I'm not falling for anything again.
Last bit of drama-ish thing I have is that I have been talking to this amazing girl who seems to have a lot in common with me and genuinely enjoys me for me. And I know I have said similar things in the past but she just seems to fit something. And she does have some issues and is a bit rough around the edges but she is really cool. As of now me and her are friends who act like a couple with issues but we are simply friends. Which I don't mind that.
So losing my marbles. As the school year came to an end I became more and more frantic. My depression and anxiety were shooting through the roof like there was no tomorrow. For example when I went to work I would occasionally have anxiety attacks and if even a coworker were to touch me I would almost instantly cry. Eventually with all the build up of depression and anxiety I released it in any way I could. So that's when instead of playing guitar I would rap. I got into rap fairly easily as I do listen to some rap. This became an often thing for me to do. It helped me release myself and reduce the physical and mental tensions I harbored for so long. This has been the biggest part of who I am now. So ya.
I think that's just about everything I really have to say for this chapter.
Apologies for no new content I guess? I'm not exactly sure what to call all this. But still apologies for not writing in 6 months.
I hope you all enjoyed this chapter of mess. If you guys have any grammar mistakes you noticed please comment because I am a bit OCD about it. Also apologies if I repeated myself. The time I'm writing this is 3:21 A.M. so it's quite late.
One thing that I realized after I originally posted this chapter is I forgot to mention was that I got into Long boarding, which is similar to skate boarding. Hence the name change.
Again, I hope you all enjoyed!
Sincerely,
Mark
