Hey... this is an update chapter... ive been away... not to sure how long its been since ive last wrote but i feel as though its been a couple months... so me and my now ex have moved on... kinda...
So with that whole situation of me and my friend Logan, i eventually broke up with my ex giving a different reason. After we broke up she treated me like shit and i do not plan to ever talk to her again because of the horrible way she treated me. Logan and i are also now officially together which makes me happy. The day that we had our intimate moment with each other is our official anniversary date. Logan treats me amazingly and never treats me badly.
One thing that is hard about being in this new relationship is the attention i have to give and the attention i get. Im not used to the amount given and taken because i got used to a relationship where i didnt have to give any nor where i got any. There is also just having to put in extra attention to his health because he does suffer from depression, and also has diabetes so i ensure to constantly check on him. My friends have all been very happy for me and believe that this relationship is better for me compared to my last one and have even said its like im a whole new person.
So, lately i have also been having a lot of depression holes.(Its what i call my depression) I havent had depression in a long while and i never really had it like i do now. It has just happened in random times. I never have a reason to being depressed but it just happens. Most recently i got to an all time low that i havent gotten to at all in recent times. My depression only last for a couple of hours but other than that im usually fine. With the most recent time i just went outside in my back yard and played guitar for a bit.
My guitar class is going to be having a concert soon. We are performing a couple songs in the beginner class and i enjoy one out of the three.
I have also applied for a camping trip at my school called camp inspire. I was accepted into it and i get to go but i am nervous to go as i know i will be in a similar situation just as i believe i talked about with the senior trip where i will be bunked with males and i will probably have some sort of panic or anxiety attack. The trip is only three days long but even then it is still something that will be hard on me.
Today, the day im writing this, which is saturday november 19th, i had my makeup done by a friend who i really appreciate and she kept trying to ensure that i was ok and that she is always going to be by my side. I appreciate what she did for me and it was an amazing experience. Sadly my other friend wasnt able to stay and help because her mom came to pick her up before we even started. But it went really well my friend did an amazing job she mainly did my eyes and also put some stuff on my lips though i dont remember exactly what she put on my lips.
So... thats a major catch up... thanks for reading this chapter. I hope you guys enjoyed.
Xoxo,
Marlene
