She's A Keeper||August Alsina&Tinashe

Chapter 34: Ivane's Arrival

Zoey's POV💔

"Glad to have you back ms.king,how has life been?" Dr.Lacey asked sitting in front of me with a kind smile on her face.

"It's been....alright. I guess." I mumbled looking straight ahead as I fumbled with my fingers. Dr.Lacey must have noticed because she started writing down notes.

"I see you're almost ready to have your baby,how do you feel about that?"

"I'm somewhat excited,but somewhat not." I answered truthfully.

"Why?"

"What do you mean why? I'm eight months pregnant and I haven't had a baby shower,no one to help me buy things for my baby or anything. I'm due next month Dr.Lacey and I've been depressed. I mean,I'm excited for my baby but....not like I was. Even when she does get here I'll be leaving her in less than two weeks or so." I explained.

"What do you mean you're leaving her?"

"As in giving her up for adoption." Dr.Lacey's face softened. I already knew she was about to try and comfort me and try to give me her pity,but I don't need a pity party. I decided this on my own,I wasn't forced to do it. Before I can try to care for a baby I have to fix myself and my problems.

Isn't that what a real mother would do?

"Zoey,why are you doing this? Can't her father care for her while you're gone?"

"Her father doesn't even claim her. He doesn't want anything to do with me nor her even when I explained myself to him. He won't take any type of action until he gets a DNA test after she gets here." I sniffled.

"I just...Want the best for her. I don't want her growing up wondering why her mother acts psycho,talking to herself and having unplanned episodes that may scare her. I want her to be in a safe environment where she can be a normal child and live life to the fullest." I weakly smiled wiping my tears.

"Wow,that is so touching zoey. I'm glad you're making the right decisions for the sake of your baby. Have you found anybody that can be capable of adopting the baby?"

"Yes." I nod my head.

"I did interviews a while back before Thanksgiving and It was this married couple that really made me think. The woman's name is Nia and she's not able to have kids,well at least not anymore. All of her other children are grown up and in the military and it gets lonely with it being just her and her husband in the house. Thing is,she's like forty-seven years old. I know you were probably expecting me to choose some young couple who can't have children at all and need a miracle to come their way,but I really saw something in Mr.&Mrs.Pittsburgh. Yes they are older,but they have experiences with children,they raised five and one died. I think they can give her the life full of happiness that I can't. I believe that I've made the right decision." I say confidently.

Dr.Lacey stares and listens as she jots more notes down.

"Zoey,I can say that you're truly developing into a woman. You are making decisions that some people with your condition can't make. I'm proud."

"Thank you."

"Since it seems like you're slolwy changing,I must ask,when was the last time you heard from Marilyn?" She asked making me shift a little in my seat.

This morning before I came.

"Three weeks ago." I lied.

"Oh wow,that's almost a month. What did she say?"

That I shouldn't come here because I'm already crazy as fuck and it's not gonna help because I'm a curse to society.

"She said...she doesn't understand why I'm giving my baby to old people who might die soon. She told me to take her to august and let him deal with it since he's the father. Then she said I shouldn't be trying to fix myself because I'm never gonna be normal again." I lied fumbling with my fingers more.