ARIAS POV:
"Ezra, I can.. I can explain..."
"yeah I highly doubt that Aria! you lied to me! you lied.. and I would never do that to you... so what else have you lied about? so how much longer till you leave me? huh just like you did Liam"
"ezra.... wait what, really?" he stared back at me. I was trying to make sense of it all. we were the best of friends. Suddenly it felt like the rest of my coming down. like the ceiling finally caved in.
he said those words and it stung. stung like the first shot i ever took in college. it didn't sting the back of my throat but my heart yeah..
"no! no! we are not going back to that!" i yelled.
"yep figures.. changing the subject."
"ezra wanna know why i left him? walked out on him? I loved you! i loved you more than anything in this world. didn't you know how much i loved you? Didn't you feel it when i touched you or looked at you? we were all that mattered at one point in both of our eyes. because it wasn't the same way i did him. ezra even if there wasn't gravity i'd still fall for you and you don't realize it. maybe we need to stop looking at what we do and look at why we do it. i just wish it hurt you too."
"were? Loved?" he questioned as I wiped the tears from my cheeks. I thought long and hard about what i was going to say next. because the fact is lying is a necessity we lie to ourselves because the truth freaking hurts. No matter how hard we try to ignore or deny it, eventually the lies fall away, like it or not. but here is the truth about the truth. it hurts, so we lie.
"I'm afraid because I know I can't fight forever. I've kissed more bottles than you these past few months and honestly a hangover hurts less than this. Ezra our story has changed and isn't the way either of us planned it. clearly you can't let go of the past so maybe this isn't the right life for either of us."
"no.. no I'm not letting you toss me aside like you do everything else. we matter. I won't let you. No!"
"look you think I'm broken. So fix me. Because I'm no quitter!" I yelled. I realized what defines us is how well we rise after falling. And i'm tired of falling i just want someone to catch me and maybe he's not the one anymore. Maybe he was never the one.. Maybe we were never supposed to get married. So sometimes we need to decide what happens next in our life. We have to take matters into our own hands and face our fears. I stood there as he kept yelling and i felt as if the room was spinning. I finally yelled out the words I was scared to say
"then leave me!" I gulped
"I made a promise and we do not end like this aria! I promised to love you forever! You want to be fixed? Okay then. No I'm not giving up on us."
"Ezra.. you know if we wait until we are both ready we could be waiting for the rest of our lives because us fighting isn't helping me. you know that. i just need space. I need to clear my head and if it works out then we are mean to be."
"So you're leaving me? Aria don't i can't live without you. this is our home.."
he said as i took a deep breath debating what to say next he interrupted again
"no, aria, no. I stayed after seeing your worst. this is not how we end!" he yelled. i crossed my arms and let the tears soak my face. he stepped in and held me.
"this time i stayed for you, you could do the same for me." he cried holding me close. I let him go.
"four walls does not mean home." i stared at him as he stared back
"what are you saying?"
I don't even know what i'm saying but I'm scared for whats to come next. and so sometimes we have to breathe in... breathe out.. and decide.
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Ezria season 6b
Fanfictionfive years forward and their lives have changed. this is Aria after college and Ezra after all these years. see where they land. some of this is how I hope ezria will be in 6b.
