Backroads

Chapter 21

                  

Have you ever had a moment in your life where it's like only you exist? Like you have the power to control who is a part of your world? Like you could completely block out your surroundings? The only thing that matters in that moment is the one you are completely engrossed with. Sure, you want to pull out of this trance. In fact you should, but you can't. It's as though your mind is detached from yourself, making the decisions for you, not with you. The mind is an odd thing. Although it's in your body, and you feel like you are in control, but you're not.

       You see, I believe that the mind is sensible to our surroundings and pays attention to our subconscious rather than ourselves. I mean that is the only thing that could explain me right now. Because in this moment the only thing I can think about is Justin. The only person I can see is Justin. Only Justin. Not Cole, who is undoubtedly worried about me because Justin is here. Not the boys. And defiantly not the girl who steps out of Justin's car. It's just the two of us. And the weird thing about this moment is that I just don't care. I don't care about the fact that Justin made me leave school crying. I don't care about the fact that he only wanted to use me, and that my family was-is- okay with that. I simply don't care. I only feel surprised. I have so many questions in this moment. Where did he get that car? When did he start racing? How is showing up with a girl, proving me that he still loves me? Why did he degrade me in front of our class?

      Justin is staring at me as well, and I know he is surprised to see me. When we locked eyes two emotions went through his body: confusion, and what I think is regretfulness. I take in what he is wearing, and I can't help but find him attractive. Black shirt, jeans with a few holes in them, black Vans, and untamed chocolate hair. After what feels like forever, I break out of trance when a white shirt comes into my line of sight.

      I look up and see Cole staring down at me with worry is his eyes. "I'm fine." I say before he even asks, "just surprised. Have you ever seen him here before?" I ask looking at Cole and the boys behind him.

      "Yeah he comes here almost every weekend. Good racer, but he gets too cocky about winning. Most of the guys around here know they can race and win, but he makes it apparent to everyone." Says Blake.

      "He's got a new car though." Says Aiden looking at his Jaguar.

      "Yeah, he probably won it in a car swap." Arin says, but then noticing my confusion explains, "A car swap is where you don't race for money, but for your opponent's car."

      Hunter rubs his jaw, "he didn't win it here though. He probably went and raced an amateur."

      "That's a hard car to beat. I'd say the owner didn't know a damn thing about the car." says Cole.

      He's right I think, even Hunter's Hell-Cat would have a run for its money pushing it as hard as it could go. "How good of a racer is he?"

      "The best."

      I look behind the towering body of Cole and see Justin. He must have walked over here while we was talking. Justin is only paying attention to me, not the leech otherwise known as the blond bimbo latched onto Justin's arm. Otherwise known as Caitlyn, the Queen of the B's. And not the stinging ones with wings, but the female dog kind.

      "Come on man I wouldn't call you the best. Especially with Cole here now." says Hunter.

      "So you're gonna race here now?" Justin asks Cole, without removing his gaze from me.

      "Hell yeah he is, and he is going to beat you. He sure would an amazing trophy wouldn't he? I mean not including the one he already has." Hunter says nudging me in the arm.