Poetry From The Mind Of The Loving

Always

I remember that night so perfectly clear,

You held me tight and fought away my fear,

I knew from that moment that I loved you,

You were absolutely perfect and charming its true,

But I was afraid not for me, but for you...

See I have a rather nasty habit of hurting them all,

The ones who so foolishly fall,

Because I'm a girl with far too many scars,

To believe for one second in love from the stars,

So perhaps that's why I lost my faith,

Long ago with the scars on his face,

To think that I alone could cause all that pain,

It was enough to drive me insane...

From that moment when I first felt the steel,

Losing myself was the only thing I could feel,

Until there was you...

I let my walls down, but I doubt I had a choice,

A smile replaced my frown, but it was because of your voice,

The racing of my heart wasn't something entirely new,

But it felt so real and different with you,

That's why I grew scared and pushed you away,

Even though I wanted to beg you to stay,

And it turns out I wasn't the only one,

Who'd let it go and turn to run,

Maybe if I would have stopped you, you would know,

How much loving you has made me grow,

But when you walked away,

I couldn't move...

Every part of my being wanted to say "don't go."

But I indulged in the breaking of my heart,

Because I knew how it would end from the start,

You're better off without me, I knew,

But still you won't say that it's true,

I'd do it all again,

Even knowing how this will end,

Because the pain of us being apart,

Is the only thing that's breaking my heart,

I could handle any pain that comes from being with you,

I see that it's my only chance of pulling through,

And now my heart won't let us part ways,

Because it knows I'll love you always...