*** This is a poem I wrote a while back, but forgot to post***
I never expected I would be like this.
I never thought I would be so afraid.
But I am afraid...
I'm afraid of holding on...
I hold on to these hopes that someday you will be there, standing in front of me with tears in your eyes and your arms outstretched... Even though I know it won't happen.
I'm afraid of letting go...
I fear what I will be like without you in my life or what you will feel like if I'm not in yours, the memories being left and forgotten... Because I need you.
I'm afraid of dreaming...
It's just a sad reminder of all that I want and can't have, what I need desperately that is being held from me... Because I dream of you.
I'm afraid of leaving...
A part of me knows you need me and that I will always need you despite what others say or think about you... But I need to go.
You said you always feared that this would happen.
I never thought it would.
I don't know what that means... And that scares me.
I wanted things to be different and expected it to be...
I fear that I was wrong.
I wished you would move on and that maybe you'd be different from them...
I wished we could be friends again, without the pain and doubt, but we can't.
There was only one path we could have followed.
I'm afraid that I don't know what to do anymore...
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Poetry From The Mind Of The Loving
PoetryA selection of poetry that is both older poems from when I was younger(That will be rvised slight to make more sense) and recent ones that come to me. Some will be sad while others will be happy or in between. I hope you enjoy :D