Rain....Is it really that good?

I See the Light

Sapphire's P.O.V.

I don’t get why he’s so nice to me. Sure my father beats and rapes me but so what? Life is crap anyway why should I care? I don’t. I’ve heard the way he treats other girls so why is he treating me like this. He’s treating me like I’m a person. I open my eyes to a room that is not mine. I sit up trying to ignore the pounding in my head. I look to try and find Josh but I don’t see him anywhere. I hear voices downstairs which reminded me that I’m not in my own home and I’m wearing a sundress. I stand up and realize something. I need a smoke. Really bad. I sneak a peek outside my door and see that Josh is passed out on the carpet next to the door. I smile and grab a blanket from the room which must be his sisters. I lightly drape the blanket over him and see him smile as he pulls it closer to him. I kiss his cheek then go down the stairs to see his mom and the guy who must be his dad. I hide behind the corner of the staircase and watch. His mom looked so happy near him. I smile slightly as she hugs him suddenly I missed my mom a lot more than I did before. I rub my eyes but it’s too late the tears were already coming and they were coming fast. I feel someone’s arms wrap around my waist and pulls me back upstairs. I don’t try to stop whoever it is even though I know I should. Too many times has something bad come from that happening to me. I close my eyes and wait for the pain to come but I remembered I was at Josh’s house. I open my eyes to see Josh standing right in front of me. I gasp as I look into his black eyes and I lose myself in them. They were so hypnotic I didn’t understand how other people didn’t just stop and stare into his eyes. He reaches to touch my cheek and out of reaction I flinch and I see pure hurt in his eyes. Great. I found the one guy who wouldn’t leave and I’m going to end up driving him away because I don’t like to be touched most of the time. I look away and look around to see that we were in his room. I blush as I see the mess of normal boys…not that I’ve been in a lot of boys rooms just my friends and my cousins. He tries again and I let him touch my cheek. I sigh when his hand softly strokes my cheek and I blush a little. I look at my hands again and realize that I still need a smoke to make my hands stop shaking. I look at him about to say that I need a smoke when he drops his hand and moves away. He points to the balcony and I nod going over there. I take out my pack and light one. I look over the balcony and see that the sun is just rising. It’s the first time in a while I got to see a sunrise but god had I missed it. I take a drag of my cigarette and feel someone watching me from behind I watch and keep smoking. Once I stomp out my cig I feel arms around my waist again. I look up even though I know I have smoke breath and see Josh smiling slightly at me. I blush and look back at the sun rise which was starting to hurt my eyes. Josh must have been thinking the same thing as he pulls me into his room and shuts the glass doors. I look at him and he looks at me. We stay there for a couple of minutes until him mom opens the door and we break apart. I blush not knowing why but I believe we just had a moment.

“Sapphire your father called here to see if you were here. He said you ran away and that you need to come home right now or else. He didn’t tell me what the or else was but I’m guessing it’s not pleasant so why did you run away?” she asks me. Before I could say anything Josh speaks for me.

“She didn’t run away mom. I took her. Her mother just died and she needed to get away for a while so I took her to a movie and dinner. I didn’t think she’d want to sleep in a room that’s right next to her dead mothers so I let her sleep here.” Josh says standing in front of me like he needs to protect me from something. I feel my heart do flip flops as he stands up for me. Thinking that all this time I’ve never had anyone stand up or lie for me. Either he feels really sorry for me or he really likes me. Probably the first one since he could never like someone like me. I realize that his mom is staring at me and I realize that all my bruises are visible and out in the open. I wrap my arms around myself to try and hide the major ones. She shares a look with Josh that obviously means something and they both nod. She exits the room in a hurry and I look at the ground feeling like I ruined the wonderful morning they were having. I think of my father calling here sounding like nothing was wrong and how I wasn’t going to get beaten to a pulp. I shiver thinking about it and Josh pulls me in for a hug and I welcome it. In his arms it feels like I’m safe and wanted. Of course, that’s not true. I have to go back home and deal with this stuff and now I can’t even talk to my mom about some troubles. I shake my head while it rests on Josh’s chest thinking that I’d rather die than go back there. I feel him pull my chin up to look at him and we stare into each other’s eyes and I see him leaning forward. I watch thinking that this is the first time a guy would kiss me not because they want to have sex with me but because he might actually like me. Well I didn’t know that for sure but would he really kiss me otherwise. I lean in for the kiss when there’s a knock on the door. We both sigh and see that it’s his dad. I blush at the thought of us kissing in front of him. I back away and sit on his bed as he talks to Tony about something that I couldn’t hear since they were whispering. I look at Josh studying him. He is cute and he must like me or he wouldn’t have done any of this. But I don’t trust a lot of people. I don’t know if I could trust him. If only my father didn’t do this stuff to me. But then I wouldn’t have met Josh.  I sigh again and see that nobody is in the room with me. I grab a piece of gum and walk down the stairs to see Josh starting to come up with the keys in his hand. I smile and climb into the car with him. I don’t know where we were going but I didn’t really care. I say the most beautiful sunrise this morning which made me see the light. Maybe people aren’t so bad.