*Tara's POV*
Now I feel way worse! Fair enough, it was my fault that Siva is fighting for his life, I already feel guilty enough. Then my own mother walks in, giving me loads of shit! As soon as those words left her mouth, I felt, yet again, alone. In my own world of self hate and fear. Only Natalie knew how I was truly feeling. We have been best friends since forever and we can both tell eachothers true feelings. I can't believe I was going to just leave everything behind. My friends. My family. Natalie. Siva. Everyone. I was going to cause so many people so much pain all because I wasn't happy. I wasn't happy with myself, no matter how many times people would tell me otherwise. Tell me I was intelligent, funny, kind, caring, beautiful. But i couldn't see any of it. I could just see, Tara. The girl with the famous brother, who hates herself, hates who she is. No matter what happens now, today has changed me, in the way that I think. Today has made me realize that people actually care about me. But that still doesn't change how I feel about myself. I stil hate me and the person that I am. I don't see how people can't see the person behind the smile. The fake smile that is spread across my face every single day.
*Max's POV*
After we heard the screaming and shouting from Tara's room I knew she would need someone. Someone to hold her and tell her everything would be ok. And I would be that person. I have to show her that someone other that Natalie cares about her.
Soon after, Mrs Kaneswaran walked out of Tara's room sobbing. Someone must of said some pretty hurtful stuff. Then 5 minutes later Natalie walked out, to go and get some tea from the cafe. She told one of us to go and check on Tara, and I said that I didn't mind, I didn't really have a choice. Nath was asleep on Tom's shoulder, Tom was also asleep, and Jay had gone to help Natalie. I slowly walked towards the door of Tara's room, thinking about what I was going to say. I was finally going to tell her my feelings for her. I can't wait any longer, I need to know if she feels the same way. I pushed the door of Tara's room open, and suddenly, my plan was looking to go wrong.
"TARA!! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING!" I walked in to find Tara, sat at the edge of her bed, holding a piece of broken glass from the candles smashed on the floor, up to her wrist, inches away from touching her skin.
"MAX, I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE THE GUILT IS EATING ME ALIVE. I PUT MY OWN BROTHER IN HOSPITAL ALL BECAUSE I WAS SELFISH. I DON'T DESERVE TO BE HERE. I DON'T DESERVE TO LIVE!" I could hear the pain in her voice. I slowly walked over to the end of the bed and brought her into my chest.
"Tara, listen to me. You are worth it. You do deserve to be here, you have your whole life ahead of you. Don't just throw it away. Siva is going to be fine, I promise. You have so many people who love you. Think about Natalie. She would hate to see you suffering. She loves you Tara. We all do. But most importantly. Tara Kaneswaran. I love you."
