*Tara's POV*
I've been sat here thinking all day about what Natalie said to me last night, how could she not tell Jay? If she wanted what was best for him she wouldn't keep something as big as that a secret, especially to him. Fair enough, she may be wanting to protect herself, but that doesn't take away from the fact that she cheated and that Jay isn't going to be a father. That is going to break him. First he lost Natalie, we all did and now he is believing he is going to have a child. I don't think he will cope, its like when I told the boys apart from Jay about Natalie and how the baby wasn't Jay's, Tom flipped out, but he knows he has to stay with her, they are brother and sister after all. Max just sat there, motionless. Siva walked out, mumbling curse words and Nathan. Nathan took it the worst. Him and Jay have always been close considering they are both the youngest but no-one expected him to react the way he did. He stayed silent for a while, and we all thought he was going to handle it really well, but then he started slagging Natalie off, calling her a slut and everything. Tom intervened to defend his baby sister and I stepped in to defend my Chummy. We promised to one another that we would always be there for each other and now is no different, I may be upset at her for cheating on Jay and not telling me sooner but that doesn't change how we are, we are inseparable and when someone, even Nathan slags her off, I'm going to say something even if it means me saying things I may regret.
*Natalie's POV*
I was walking back from getting some shopping when I heard shouting round the corner, I turned the corner to see Nathan angrily shouting down the phone.
"HOW COULD SHE NOT TELL HIM WHEN SHE CHEATED AND IT ISNT EVEN HIS FUCKING BABY! Yes I know Jay is going to be heartbroken. Max I know. I SWEAR IF I EVER SEE HER AGAIN, I WILL MAKE HER PAY, JAY DOESNT EVEN KNOW THAT SHE IS SCREWING HIM OVER BECAUSE SHE IS SUCH A SLUT AND CHEATED. MAX I DONT CARE IF SHE IS TOMS SISTER! SHE WASNT RAISED LIKE THAT, YOU DONT SEE TOM CHEATING ON KELSEY, IM TELLING YOU, SHE IS SUCH A FUCKING SKANK, A WHORE. JAY DOESNT DESERVE HER!"
wow. I zoned out after then and rushed home. I trusted Nathan and Max. If Nathan thinks that then what do the other boys and especially Tara think of me. She must hate me. I'm done, that's it. I know where I'm not wanted.
When I arrived back, I placed everything neatly on the kitchen worktop and practically ran upstairs. I packed my suitcase and wrote everyone a note. I hate leaving everyone behind, especially Tara, but if that's what they all think of me then I cant deal with it. The hate from fans is ok, but knowing my own best friends say that about me behind my back, all the hate they say. That I cant deal with and that breaks me. I shoved my suitcase down the stairs and walked down the stairs. The noise of my case caused Tara to come into the hallway. Her face dropped when she noticed the suitcase at the bottom of the stairs.
"Nat, what's going on? Why do you have a suitcase? Please tell me you aren't leaving again. Nat, please I need you, we started this whole journey together, I don't want to end it without you. Please tell me I'm wrong and stupid. Tell me its all lies and you aren't going again. I don't know when I'm ever going to see you again. Just don't go, Natalie, please. Chummy."
She pulled me in for a hug, but I shrugged her off and wiped her tears.
"Tara, you don't need me to be happy, ok? You have everything you need here, Max, the boys, the girls. You have everything ahead of you. Your whole life is around the corner. I never want to leave you, because I feel like I'm losing a part of me and my heart. You will never know and realise how much you mean to me and how much you have saved me and I will never forget about you. We have been through too much together to ever forget anything. You mean more than the world to me, but I cant go on living here and being here knowing the boys hate me and that because of a drunken mistake, I have a child on the way, that I'm not ready for. Don't ever change Chummy, I love you."
And with that, I walked out on my life and my best friend. I'm sorry.
