Lyrics Left Me

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Hey lovelies!!!!!!!!!!! New chapter!!!!!!! I'm going to try to make this really long for you guys since I haven't been updating a whole lot, so the banner is Maggie Smith, she played Professor McGonagall in Harry Potter. I picked her to play Mrs. Davis because she plays a really good strict teacher in the Harry Potter movies, which I am a major fan of the movies and the books, but more the books than the movies. Anyway, you've heard me drone on for long enough, so happy reading! 😊❤️

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I walk through the door of my house and go to my room.

I grab my headphones and go to my closet.

I sit on the floor in the darkness, and I cry as I listen to the music that once made me happy.

I see a paperclip on the floor next to my foot. I pick it up.

I bring it to my healed wrist. It was once covered in cuts that I thought would never go away.

I am just about ready to press the end of the paperclip to my wrist when the closet door opens.

"I knew when the teacher called your name in History and you weren't there something was up. So, why are you in th-" Connor stops when he sees the paperclip about to pierce my skin.

"Connor, please I-"

"Why would you do this to yourself?" He asks as he moves my hand from my wrist.

"You don't understand Connor. You don't get it. You don't know. "

"You're right, I don't know, so tell me. Why would you harm yourself? Have you been doing this a lot lately? Where is the happy girl I knew two years ago?"

I start to cry again. Connor pulls me into a hug and holds me close. A hug won't make this better, he doesn't understand.

That happy girl is just in his imagination. I never wanted him to find out about this. I push him away from me and he looks shocked.

I close the closet door. He tries to open it again, but I lock the door. I throw my headphones and they hit the wall and fall to the floor.

The music continues. I wish they had broken.

I put my face in my hands and cry.

"I'll wait here for you. You have to come out sometime."

"Not if I decide to let self rot in here." I whisper just loud enough so he can hear it.

"Harmony, I'm worried about you. Just tell me what's happened. Please. I'm here for you. Don't you know that you can tell me anything? "

His words make me continue to cry.

"Harmony, please. I'm here. I will listen. Don't ever think that I won't be here for you. Me and you, we've been through everything together."

"But what about when you start on your music career? Where will you be when I need you?"

Silence. Then I hear him get up. He knocks on the door.

"Come on, open the door."

I unlock the door. I let him take me I his arms. His warm embrace isn't helping.

I want it to help, but it just isn't.

A hug isn't going to make me forget my troubles, it's not going to rid me of my demons.

I want his presence in my life to help me, but it doesn't make a dent on what's going on inside my head.

I get out if the hug. "I'm okay now Connor." I lie so he'll go away. He nods and stands up.

"You want to go to my place?" he asks.

"No, I think I'll just stay here and just watch some tv or something. "

He nods and walks out if the room. when I hear the front door close, I get up.

I shut my bedroom door again.

I go back to the closet and grab the paper clip. I stare at it.

I press it to the skin on my wrist. I start to bleed.

I drag it across my wrist, making a straight line.

Blood wells up on the cut. I fall to the floor and cry.

Not out if the physical pain, but the demons torturing me on the inside.

I lay there for hours.

I let the demons control me.

I let them tell me to cut my wrist. I let them force me to take the paper clip deeper.

Blood.

Blood running down my wrist. I let out a small whimper in agony.

The torture is too much. The demons are taking over.

I stand up. and blood runs down my hand. I walk out the front door. Ignoring what my mom is screaming at me.

I go to the sidewalk.

I see a car coming.

I walk out into the street and walk in front of. I hear the squeak if the brakes and then darkness.

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Intense. How was it? By the way, if you ever feel like Harmony did in this chapter, don't you ever cut yourself. it's a terrible thing to do and you will regret it. Trust me. I know. It gets better. Don't turn that way. There is always somewhere you can go, or someone you can talk to. Thanks for reading! Vote and comment! also, I'm trying to update every Saturday, but I might update during the week too. Keep reading! LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!😊❤️

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2015RD

Eem06012001

I would like to dedicate these 2015RD and Eem06012001 because they are two of my closest friends and they are awesome.

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