Lyrics Left Me

*18*

hey guys! No song this time, my search isn't working. But, the song was supposed to be Castle by Halsey, so feel free to look it up. Anyway, there's probably going to be 20/21 chapters. This book is coming to a close, but I have other books coming! Love you all!😊❤️

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We went back to Connors house to celebrate. It wasn't actually a party, we just hung out in the basement and played video games, sang, and kissed...more than once.

After I left, I went back home smiling.

I walked through the door, and I expected for there to be less boxes, but this time there were more.

I went to the kitchen, to find my parents packing up the dishes.

"Um, what are you guys doing? I thought we weren't moving?" I asked, looking at them, confused.

"Connor isn't good for you. He has taught you to rebel against your parents, and disrupt the peace. Last time we moved, you came. You kept the peace. Now, we have to move, because if you don't, you will disrupt the peace between this family. Your mother and I have already decided on this, and our word is final. Go pack your stuff. Tomorrow is your last day of school. Say goodbye to your friends, say goodbye to Connor, because tomorrow, after you get home, we are leaving." My dad says, smiling, trying to force me to be happy about this.

I stand there, shocked. I realize that there is no argument, they will get me to leave one way or another.

I go to my room and I sit on my bed. There's nothing to write in, or about. I can't listen to music, it'll just remind me of Connor.

Our time together. We have been best friends since birth. My parents hate him now.

I wish my parents weren't peacemakers, I wish that they were just normal parents who fight with me, and I wish they would be normal and punish me rather than saying they don't want an argument.

I can't tell Connor we are moving, it will break him, and he will try to do something about it.

I can't tell him. I have to leave like I did last time. Silently and peacefully.

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I wake up the next morning and decide to wear my black jeans and a band t-shirt, black converse, and my black beanie. I'm trying to blend in today so I can go unnoticed.

When I get to school, I head to my locker.

But, I can't open my locker. Because there is a hand with perfectly manicured nails on my locker door.

"What do you want Avery?" I say, trying to get rid of her so I can just leave this place. So I don't have the pain of seeing Connor.

"Sassy today, aren't we? I'm here to tell you that I know today is your last day. Don't ask me how I know, I have ways of finding things out. Now, I have your stupid notebook, but, you have to get it from me. And I'm not going to make it easy. Don't worry, those papers on the walls, weren't directly from your notebook. Your stupid journal thing is still intact. You just have to get it from me before I expose your secret." She smirks, and I stand there shocked.

"How do you know my secret?" I whisper, hoping nobody heard what she said. (P.S. If it wasn't clear, which it really isn't because I reread this and it's not very clear, but anyway the secret is her first attempted suicide and her past and things like that.)

"Like I said, I have ways of finding things out." She walks away with her friends and I stand there staring at my locker.

How could I have been so stupid as to drop that notebook in the first place? If I hadn't, then I wouldn't have gotten depressed, I wouldn't be moving, and I wouldn't have a secret for Avery to expose.

But, then again, if I hadn't dropped the notebook,

Connor and I wouldn't have kissed in the hospital.

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I know, I know, it's too short! I'm sorry! *Cries* but the book is almost over!😭😭 I'm really going to miss writing new chapters to this book. Love you guys! Hope you guys aren't as emotional as I am right now😭*sniffle*😭