Lyrics Left Me

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Hey guys! It has been decided....the new cover shall be (drumroll......) the first one!!! Yay!!!! Anyway, the video is Halsey and it's called "Empty Gold" anyways let's just get right to the chapter! 😊❤️

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Harmony's P.O.V

This time, the light did not come. I sat in the darkness for a very long time. I felt all the pain, all the demons were talking.

I sat their trying to do anything to make them go away.

They wouldn't stop talking.

I wanted to go back, I wanted to see Connor, I wanted these voices inside my head to go away.

Before I know it, I'm crying.

The demons that posses me say that I am worthless.

That I will never belong.

That no matter how much I try, I will always fail.

I take my fingernails try to pierce my skin, but they are not long enough or sharp enough.

I can see them this time.

They pick me up and drag me farther into the darkness.

Their hands are cold, and as they drag me, they whisper in my ears,

"You will never be loved"

"You will never be loved"

"You will never be loved"

The monitor beeps, and I awake.

How long will this go on? Waking up and dying again, it's torture.

I will stay awake this time.

I hear voices in the hall.

"She is stable, but we don't know how long it will last. You might want to talk to her while she's awake. Tell her your last goodbyes and things. It's a miracle that she even woke up."

I hear people coming.

I sit up and immediately regret it.

My head feels like I was hit in the head with a brick.

My body feels like I'm being burned alive and being hit repeatedly with hammers at the same time.

I let out a huge groan and Connor runs in.

He rushes over to me and grabs my face.

"I was so scared. Harmony, I need to tell you something before it's too late."

I already knew what he was going to say.

"Harmony, I kissed you, while you were unconscious, and umm...well, I can't really say I regret it. I know you don't really feel that way about me, but I thought I should tell you, because, well, I could have sworn you kissed me back, but of course you didn't, I mean that would be crazy, I mean, a dying person, an unconscious person at that, would not be able to kiss someone back you know, I just thought that maybe, you know, that you felt the same way, but I know I'm wrong it's just that I-"

I cut him off and kiss him with all the strength I could muster, which, is not that much but the way.

"Connor, I need you to know something."

He nods, allowing me to speak.

"You talk way to much when you're nervous. I've wanted to kiss you for a long time. So shut up, and let me kiss you while I'm still here. Because, you know something, I think I love you too."

I sit up, and he sits down, and we face one another.

We kiss. We kiss for a long time.

It feels like hours, a timeless thing, until the doctor walks in.

"Sorry to interrupt, but you need to be examined now."

Nurses come in and Connor gets off the bed and I get wheeled out of the room in a wheelchair.

We get to this room with a huge machine.

I'm supposed to get a full body scan, and X-Ray, and a CAT scan.

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The scans weren't bad, and I'm supposed to get out of the hospital in two weeks, that is if nothing else happens.

Connor is going to stay with me until I get out of the hospital.

I want to be able leave this place. I hate being tied down to a bed and not being able to get up without a nurses help.

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Three weeks later...

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Today is the day. The day I face the entire high school population that knows I tried to kill myself.

What do you wear for this kind of day?

Honestly, I don't care what I wear.

I just throw on a band tshirt, (Fall Out Boy today) converse, jeans, and my usual black beanie.

I walk out the front door and decide to walk to school, even though my mother told me to take the bus because I could 'Cause more damage to myself'

Well, I could, but walking gives me the peace to figure out what I'm going to do.

I decide to deny the fact that I did try to kill myself and try to play it off as a hit and run accident. Hopefully nobody knows the truth but Connor and my teachers.

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Okay, this chapter is a filler, it's short, and it's terrible. But the next one will be posted on Wednesday or earlier, and it will be very long, and very awesome. Love you all! 😋