The Temptations of Chemistry

Chapter Five - You Think This Is A Joke?

Chapter Five - You Think This Is A Joke?

"Ugh!" I groaned as I tossed my pencil down violently down onto the paper, "This is so dumb. Why do we even learn this?" I growled at Carson as I ran my fingers through my hair. He's been tutoring me for a week now and I still know absoulutely nothing. It's pointless. Besides it was late and I really did not want to be doing homework.

"Believe it or not, Lyn, people use this in their jobs.." He informed me pointing down at my scribbled on paper.

"Well, I'm never going to so I shouldn't even have to take it." I replied, matter of factly. I mean really, I was never going to need to use the periodic table ever in my lifetime after I finish this class.

Carson pinched the bridge of his nose, something else he did alot when he got frustrated. Especially with tutoring me. "Just do the work, Jessalyn." He grumbled as he crossed his arms over his broad chest. 

Instead of going back to my work, I reamined staring at him . Most of the time his expression was blank or filled with fury but it's times like this where you can look into his eyes and see so much honesty and it's almost like looking into the eyes of a pupy dog. The longer I looked at him the more my mind wondered off.

"I can't believe you had the fucking nerve to show up here again."

"Usually when you kill someone.. you go to prison, bitch." 

"Well yeah, isn't it like dangerously illegal to kill someone?"

"Cars.." I started with a shaky voice, then coughing to try and cover it up. He looked over at me, his face almost looking worried. "Did you.. hear any thing going around about me?"

He furrowed his eyebrows. "Like what?"

I gulped back and tried not to look him directly in the eye and spoke with a laugh "Like.. that I killed someone."

Carson's hands gripped tighter on his pencil, he looked away from me and back to the paper. I wasn't expecting a quiet reaction from him, but that seems to be what I got. For a while he remained speechless and I started to wish I hadn't of brought it up.

"I heard it.." He started, shrugging his shoulders. "That doesn't mean I necessarily believe it." 

Immediately, I put my front back up. "Well," I scoffed. "New's really does travel fast, huh?" A smirk rose over my face. "And far." I added.

A strange look took over Carsons face, a hard and frustrated one. I wasn't sure what he was going to say or what he was going to do. I could basically feel his brain judging me as he stared at we with narrowed eyes. I knew he was going to either start asking questions or talk about how I was such an awful person.

"So you did do it?" I snarled in an accusing tone.

I laughed, "Well you know how it is, when people get in your way sometimes you just gotta show 'em that you mean buisness." 

He could sense my tone like a lie detector. "Lyn-"

His jaw clenched tight, the jaw bone ticking in animosity. I knew it killed him to have me shut him out completely. He never was good with not knowing everything, whether he cared or not. And I knew he didn't care about my problems.

"No." I stopped him. "Just drop it." He sighed heavily as I looked away as he crossed his arms over his chest again and looked downward.

He was going to push this. "Jessalyn, you know you can-"

"I said, stop" I demanded firmly. I smirked lightly before turning my eyes back to my paper and picking my pencil up into my hand. "Back to physics."