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29. Beginning

"Did you ever even love me?" I asked Mr. James. How could he call me a sl.ut if he loved me?

He had tricked me. I was such a fool for believing him. I was being stupid in that moment, asking him about his feelings. I should just stop.

"No, I never did. I only wanted to f.uck you," Mr. James admitted proudly. "What a perfect little f.uck you were until you turned out to be a sl.ut!"

Stephen finally showed a reaction, "Go to my room, Stella. We have to talk. I will be there in ten."

I did as he told. There was no way I would stay in the same room as Mr. James for another minute.

For the first time in forever, I entered Stephen's room again. It was a mess. His clothes were all over the floor, the movies he watched with me were spread all over the huge television, his bed was unmade and there was this weird smell in the air. That was the green I hated.

I stood there for a little while, not daring to sit down.

When he finally came, I was relieved.

"He is gone for now," Stephen told me. "What the actual f.uck were you thinking?"

"I am sorry, Stephen. I do not want you to hate me," I said. "He told me he loved me. He asked me to call him David. I thought something was there."

"How long has this been going on?"

"In the beginning, we just kissed. After I lost the baby, he started touching me more and more up until yesterday..." I could not believe my own words.

"Why did you not tell me, Stella? I would have told you that he is not entirely real about it," Stephen said in a soft tone. "Sorry for not being harsher. Somehow I still tend to think you are carrying my baby."

"I did not want to hear it. I never had a father... There is no way I could know how a man behaves. I feel stupid. I just want to punch myself," I uttered resentfully.

"Daddy issues. I should have known. You were always so keen on him," Stephen muttered.

"What made you come to me today?" I asked him. Stephen had been zoned out for ages.

"My mother was killed on a day like this," he revealed. "I felt bad for pushing you away. I mean look at you now. He slept with you and you revealed all your secrets to him. If I had been there for you, this would not have happened."

"It is not your fault," I tried to convince myself and him.

"All of this is my fault." He went to his closet and took out the bag he bought me for my birthday. "I do not know what he will do to you now, but I am sure it will be close to destruction. I want you to have this."

"I can't accept it. I did not even give you your child," I muttered.

He urged me to take it.

"You should keep it here where it is safe. I do not know what Mr. James is capable of," I told him.

Later that day, after I had spent a lot of time with Stephen, I went to my bed. It felt so cold. Stephen offered me to sleep in his room, but I did not want to complicate things with Mr. James any further.
So I laid down in my bed, vulnerable and broken. I gave Mr. James everything.

How could I have been so dumb not to realise what his intentions were?

Then it happened. Abruptly, I heard my locked door open and he entered my room. Mr. James had come to take the last of me.

"You really thought a locked door could ever stop me?" he asked me. Mr. James turned on the lights in my room. At first my eyes hurt at the brightness. He entered my vision in his sweatpants and hoodie. Mr. James must have been exercising.

I did not want to have weird thoughts, so I turned away.

"Come here," he said. I did not react. Then he added more pressure. "Do it now."

I got up from the bed and stood right in front of him. Why did my body betray me? I wanted to be close to him after everything he had said that day and that sucked. It was very bad.

"Kneel down." I was not sure whether I had heard right. Mr. James made sure I understood what he wanted me to do when he repeated in a demanding tone, "Get down on your knees right now."

-A/N WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT!!??Mr. James changes his mood like the weather!! Do you even want her to do 'THAT' for him or should I make up some crazy behaviour sh.it on Mr. James' part!?!! There are two chapters left!-