Noticed (BxB)

Feel Your Touch

After giving RaeMal his quick nut he dropped me off at home. Nobody was there so I just took this time to be alone. I sat in the tub with my head on my knees. Listening to the water drops hitting the water.

My face was still hurting and the hot water was stinging my sore body. I just wanted to give up like fuck my life and fuck everything. There was nobody on this earth I felt loved me. The only person that loved me was my mama.

"Mama why you leave me. Why you leave me hear with these people."

I spoked as the tears ran down my face. I remember when she use to rock me in her arms and sing to me.

"If there ever a tear falling from your eyes Look up to the skies
For I am there watching you
Watching you...Mama will all ways be there."

The sound of her sweet voice echoed in my ear. I could feel her holding me. But it wasn't enough I thought. So I laid back resting my head against the back of the tub and with two quick slices. I rest my arms on the sides of the tub. I was feeling better already I was feeling peace. It was getting quiet, it was so quiet the dripping of the water had disappeared.

A slight smile grew on my face. I was feeling light my body wasn't aching I wasn't feeling nothing. I released a nice small like sigh. The room was beginning to bright up. It was as if my eyes were beginning to get heavy. I blinked once then twice. I closed my eyes. It seem distant but I could hear my name. Then a small thumb. Feeling dazed I struggle to open my eyes. Opening them up enough to see my uncle standing over me and it look like he was screaming, and then everything went dark.....

Depression is running through my head,
These thoughts make me think of death,
A darkness which blanks my mind,
A walk through the graveyard, what can I find?
Black shadows walk in between the graves,
How many lives have not been saved?
Six feet under if not more,
How I'd like to go down and explore,
The feeling of lying in a box,
I can't get out, is it locked?
Is it day or is it night?
Are birds singing or have bats taken to flight?
I know one day this is where I'll go,
Am I afraid? I don't think so!
Will I be able to explore the feeling of death?
After I've taken my last breath?
Or will I be a shadow in between the graves?
Will I know how many lives have not been saved?
After this life is there another one?
With a different moon and a different sun,
I won't go to hell as I'm already there,
A place full of sadness, a place full of despair,
So there's nothing to live for, no future no past,
So I might as well end it, end this life at last.

"Alex...sweetie you can't stay."

The sweet voice of my mother spoke. I was wrapped in her arms warmed by her touch. The feeling of her holding me gave me joy. She was so pretty. She was dress in a white dress and had big beautiful wings.

"Mama I don't wanna go back."

"I know baby but it's not your time sweetie you got to go back. You have love ones who need you."

She said, I began to tear up. I felt better being with her.

"Awe my baby."

She said hugging me tight.

" If there ever a tear falling from your eyes. Look up to the skies for I am watching you...watching you
mama will always be there."

She song to me comforting me. I let the tears follow from my eyes because I really didn't want to go. I could feel her tears hitting my forehead.

"Just wake up."

She said as her voice began to distance.

"Alex wake up please."

She began to fly away. I reached out for her hand but she was gone. Everything around me was going black and I shut my eyes to stop everything.

"Alex please wake up."

I heard a familiar voice say.

"Please wake up."

I started to feel something wet on my head. Struggling to open my eyes. I could barely make out everything around me cause of the bright light. Trying to focus my eyes on the figure over me. Getting focus Its was Tabitha. She was crying over me. Excuse if I sound petty and but did she have to cry on me.

"T...tabby...move."

I said coughing cause my throat was super dry.

"Wa....Oh my god! Alex BITCHHHH!!!"

She shouted hugging me like crazy.

"Ouch...Tabby mmm damn."

Her eyes were red as fuck from crying. I guess somebody loves me.

" Oh my god...he woke yall come in."

She yelled out the room. Then in come rushing my aunt and uncle. They all crowded around me.

"Thank you lord oh my god Alex my baby."

My aunt cried gripping my hand. Then in walks a nurse.

"Ok everyone let's give him room."

She said giving me some water.

"How you are feeling Mr. Wilson?"

"Fine where am I"

"Well you are in the hospital...do you know why?"

"No..."

"You slit your fucking wrist you ass."

Tabby said hitting me in my shoulder.

"I sorry ma'am I will need for you to control yourself."

The nurse check Tabitha.

"But yes... Mr. Wilson you were found by your uncle in the tub bleed out. It seems that you slit both your wrists and you passed out."

"Ok...how long was I out.?"

"You slipped into a coma of seven months."

Damn! You really did a number on yourself then Alex. I was stun and shocked. So the nurse went on to check my vitals and record it on the clip board. The rest of the day I laid there listen to Tabby yell at me and my aunt and uncle argue a little. After while I grew tired all I just wanted to do was rest. So they kissed and hugged me and left. Three hours passing and it was 7:15 in the evening.

I was laying up just staring at the ceiling. Trying to wrap my head around what cause me to cut myself. What happened? Why it happened? Where was Tobias? Did he move on? All this was playing in my head. Then a knock came on the door.

"Yes..."

"Mr. Wilson...umm I'm sorry to bother you but have a visitor he say he won't leave unless he see you are fine."

"Ok...well let him in its fine."

I said thinking it could be Tobias. I was now feeling a lil happy because I just knew it was him and he was here to see me. The door pushed open and my smile crumbled. It wasn't Tobias at all.

"Hey bae...how you doing?"

Spoke Rae...

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