Noticed (BxB)

Love Me or Nah

-To build a wall to shut people out is to build a cage to shut out love-

Damn! Why was I doing this to myself. I can't deal with this back and forth emotions. This is something new. Why was he doing this? What made him change? Does he even change? I was ready to pull my hair out. This date at Olive garden is everything and then some. RaeMal all smiles conversating and not making threats or turning my eye blue. So I should be happy right!?! But I'm not I am in so much fear.

"Bae!"

RaeMal shouted breaking out of my daze.

"Huh...yes"

"Did you hear me.?"

He asked.

"I'm sorry bae I was just thinking about a test."

I said coming up with a lie.

"Ight...but like I said I wanna make this official."

"But we are official."

"Nah like something we get together like a ring or tattoo."

He said.

"Bae we don't need____."

"We do."

He said cutting me off.

"I got to make sure every nigga knows that you my bae."

"And everybody knows that."

"Shit not everybody. O boy that lil nigga Toby."

He said

"Toby...Tobias?!"

"Yea him...I see him around you. I don't like that shit and I should be choking yo ass out about it because I told you not to be round him. But that's why I'm doing this shit right here."

I was confused to what the fuck was going on.

"Bae Tobias____."

"I don't give a fuck."

He said looking up from his plate.

"It's bout you...yo ass don't comprehend so Ima make it official."

He said pulling out a small box out his pocket. Now I see why he was putting on this show. He over to the left and saw Tobias and couple of his friends walked in. RaeMal felt like he had to compete for me. I love him. But I am kind of falling back for Tobias. Just now seeing him walk in I was starting to feel butterflies in my stomach.

"Hold out your hand."

Rae said. Then he slid the ring on my finger. it was beautiful. It was gold and had "forever RaeMal" engrave on it. I wanted to cry now and not bout the ring but bout the fact I'm more of Rae property then Love. I wasn't starting to feel like his boyfriend no more.

"Shit nice right!"

Rae said grinning like a millionaire.

"Yes...I got to go to the bathroom be right back."

I said placing a quick kiss on his lips faking like I was happy. I walked away a glance over at Tobias table. I wanted him to see me, but he was too busy playing breadstick war with his new colleagues. Making it to the bathroom I ran to the last stall at the end. I sat there and let the tears run down my face. Thinking to myself way can I just stop this and let him go. Ugh I hate myself. My phone buzzed, and it was a text from Rae:

RaeBae: Bae you good!

Me: Yea just give me a minute the pasta made me sick.

RaeBae: Ight hurry up I done paid I'm ready to go.

Me: ok bae

See he don't even care if I was sick or not?! Some type of love this is. I started out the stall and splashed some water in my face. Dapped my face dry and started out the bathroom then BOOM! I ran right into Tobias. We stared at each other acquired at first.

"Shit what's sup."

He said giving me a hug. Mm he smelled good Calvin Klein. Wearing nothing but a muscle shirt and gym shorts he could have had me right there.

"I didn't know you was here. Shit who you with?!"

Tobias asked.

"I'm with Rae but we about to leave I'm not feeling good."

I said grabbing my stomach.

"Oh ight...well I don't wanna impeded. So I'll hit you up later."

"Mm k."

I said putting my head down and walking out the door. After leaving the restaurant I was just ready to be alone. Rae was turning up to the music and I just sat there looking out the window.

"Bae, you. Coming home with me tonight?!"

He asked.

"Rae I'm not feeling good just take me home."

"Damn so I can't get no pussy!"

He shouted now he was mad.

"Rae I told you the pasta made me sick."

"So what that got to do with me fucking you!"

I just rolled my eyes. Rae struck me on the back of my head.

"You heard me and fuck you rolling yo eyes fa."

"Rae I'm just not feeling good that's all bae we can chill tomorrow."

"Man, bitch Fuck You! "

Rae shouted the swerving the car into a parking lot.

"Get the Fuck out."

"Rae What?!"

"Get THE FUCK OUT BITCH WALK YO ASS HOME!!!"

Rae yelled. I couldn't do nothing but stare at him. He was serious all cause of some sex. I was nowhere near my neighbor my home.

"Rae____"

"Bitch get the FUCK OUT.!"

He said punishing me out the car.
Slamming his door Rae pulled off and left me there. I sat there on that cold ground and watched him turn the corner. He wasn't coming back. He just left me there. Then he started sending me texts:

RaeBae: Bitch Fuck you! I know you trying to see him but bet I got yo ass!

RaeBae: Don't think you gonna leave me Bitch you mines
remember

I didn't even bother to respond. I just got up and dusted myself off and started walking. I did know exactly where or how to get home but I couldn't call my aunt because she was at work and my uncle was the last person I need to deal with.

So I tried to call Tabitha but she wasn't picking up. It was getting cold out here and I didn't have a jacket. All I wanted to do was to jump in front of a car. But that wouldn't do no good cause there was barely cars driving by. Fuck it I give up! I just walked over to a park bench at sat there.

"FUUUUUUUCK!!!!"

I yelled out crying. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I was crying and sobbing. He really made me feel like shit. I can keep doing this. When is my breaking point?

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