My Life Has Been a Lie (a Cimorelli adopt fanfic)

Chapter 30 It's her

Sophia's POV

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I was up in our room getting ready as saffron said that we could go over early. I grabbed my keys and phone and went downstairs where I met Lauren and Dani.

"You ready?" I asked as they pulled themselves up off the sofa in the other room.

Dani was the last one out so she's shut the door and ran to catch up with us. Soon we were at saffron's front door, Dani pressed the door bell and shortly after the door opened.

"Hey guys come in!" Saffron welcomed us in. We all stood there in the hallway as saffron called for her cousin, there was no reply so she went to go get her.

As they made their way back down the stairs my heart felt like it stopped beating at the sight of her.

That blond straight hair.

That tall skinny figure.

Those green piecing eyes that cut right through my sole.

It was all too familiar! This wasn't some new girl I knew exactly who she was.

"Okay guys this is Brooke, Brooke this is Lauren, Dani and Sophia!" Saffron said introducing Brooke, not that I needed one, to my disappointment, I knew her well enough. Brooke greeted Lauren and Dani but it then was my turn. She came close before gripping my hand to shake. Her eyes looked deep into mine as she grinned a bit,

"Hi" she said as she discretely squeezed my hand harder and harder. My body froze around her presence, this can't be happening! I can't escape her!!

"So should we go into the other room?" Saffron said pointing in the way of the living room.

"Oh actually I feel kinda sick I think I might just go home." I had to get out of here, away from her. Lauren and Dani looked kind of confused,

"You were fine like 10 minutes ago?" Dani asked confused.

"Uhh yeah um, it's just come on"

"Well if ur sure" Lauren said looking just as confused as Dani. I nodded.

"Okay well I guess I will see you guys in a bit" I said opening the front door trying to hold in the burning tears.

I shut the door behind me and speed walked back up our drive way. A few tears had escaped. I opened the door and ran straight past everyone and up the stairs. I ran into the bathroom and locked the door and leant against the bottom as I sat down and let the tears flow. Why god why?! I was so angry, upset, confused, terrified and flooded with emotions. I couldn't handle it.

I looked around the bathroom for anything sharp that I could find. I searched through everything on top of and around the sink before looking in the top draw. There i found some razor blades. I took one and and didn't think twice about what I was going to do, I needed it! I felt the sharp edge run across my wrists, as the blood ran down my arm. I did it again and again and again and again on each arm. I didn't care if I bled to death it would be better then having to go back to the old ways.

I sat the letting the deep cuts bleed out, as the tears streamed down my face. There was a knock at the door,

"Soph are you okay in there?" Lisa called through the door.

"Yeah I just feel sick" I said between sniffs,

"You sure? Are you actually throwing up?" She sounded concerned.

"No I'm fine" I replied hoping she would leave. She did.

I got up and cleaned the razor of blood and put it back, before rinsing the blood of my arm. I looked down at the cuts across my arms and then up into the mirror. I was ashamed of myself, not for the cuts but that my past had over come me again, the old me was back. 

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A/N: sorry if any of this chapter upset anyone