I'll carry you home (Everlark)

Chapter 24: Lips

Chapter 24

Katniss P.O.V.

I decided not to wait. About half an hour after Gale had left and I'd had a panic attack, I calmed down, put on some other clothes, and went to the store.

I bought some steel wool. I can't kiss Peeta before I've cleaned my lips. I know that it wasn't my fault that Gale kissed me, but I still feel so guilty. It's not like I was unfaithful or anything since my lips was so tightly shut and I pushed him away and everything, but the guilt is eating me up alive.

I should tell Peeta right? Yeah I know I should, I shouldn't keep it from him. He'll understand, right?

I don't know actually. I hope he understand. What if he gets really angry? I have to explain what really happened, if I do that he'll understand, I know he will. Or will he?

I put my keys into the keyhole when I'm back from the store. With a shaky breath I open the door.

I see Peeta's shoes in the hall, but no smell of food. Maybe he just got home and hasn't had time to prepare dinner yet.

I wonder what he'll say when I tell him what happened. I wonder how he'll look at me, how he'll speak to me. If he will be angry. Sad. Irritated. Maybe furious. But maybe he won't be angry at me. Maybe he'll be angry at Gale. I mean obviously he should be angry at him. I'm so angry at Gale, I could kill him right now.

I put my keys on the side table in the hall and step out of my shoes. I put the little plastic bag with the steel wool on the floor before walking towards the kitchen.

But when I arrive in the kitchen, Peeta is not there. I walk to our room, but no Peeta, and he's not in the bathroom. When I walk into the living room I find him. He's sitting in the couch. Elbows on he's knees, slightly leaning forward while looking down onto the floor. He has a serious expression as well as a hurt expression.

"Peeta?" I say carefully, walking further into the living room. Peeta slowly looks up at me, he's eyes full of pain. "What's wrong? Did something happen?"

"Did something happen?" He repeats in a kind of mocking yet angry and hurtful voice.

He's angry at me. What did I do?

Peeta stands up, and walks up to a small table beside the tv. The phone and speaker. He clicks on a button to play a message.

"Hey Catnip, I just had to call you and tell you how much I'm thinking of your lips, how red and warm they are. I can't stop thinking about that kiss, we have to do it again, I'm thinking about you Catnip, call me and tell me about that date we were talking about".

"No!" I shout, feeling all the warmth in my face drain out in the matter of a few seconds.

"I come home, looking for my beautiful girlfriend, give her a kiss and start with the dinner I promised her", Peeta says looking at me with hard eyes. "I don't find you and I figured that you'd be home soon, I saw that there was a message on the answering machine and I click the button, and I hear this..."

"That's not how it went Peeta!" I say desperate for him to believe me, but I can see in his eyes that he doesn't. "Peeta..."

"I don't want to hear lies Katniss, I don't, I'm finished with lies and betrayals, I don't want to go through those stuff again, you knew about my past, and you go on and do this, I don't understand why you would ask me to move in with you, if you'd go ahead and cheat on me".