Million Dollar Dreams

Chapter 3

I couldn't grasp everything at once. I just couldn't understand how all of this happened. I felt so bad for his mom. I kept thinking to myself that it was partly my fault, that I was giving her stress that ended up making her snap.

I was up all night with bad stomach pains, and the worst headaches. I wasn't able to take anything for it either, so I was up most of the night dealing with in. I kept looking over at Kirk, he tossed and turned all night. Normally, he's a calm sleeper. To me, it looked like he was reliving it in his dreams.  

Kirk was a little shook up over it, but he seemed to handle it better than I was. I guess it's because I know what its like to loose control of yourself, I know what its like to just snap. Maybe it was more out of sympathy than it was of me blaming myself. Of course, deep down, I knew it wasn't my own fault.

My gut was telling me this is only the start of the drama that is Houston. I hated to admit it, but I think this is a bad idea. I couldn't tell Kirk that though, I could just be over reacting, and nervous about the move. It was really all I think about.

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Third shift.. Wonderful. I walked into work about twenty minutes early. I sat down in the break room before I clocked in. At the table, sitting, was Dee and Andre.

"Hey Lexus, you working this shift?" Andre smiled up at me. I sat down next to Dee.

"Yup.." I sighed. "I might do a double."

"You should tire yourself out." Dee said rubbing my stomach. Andre looked at us funny, then it clicked. 

"You're pregnant?!" Andre said with his eyes wide. "I had no idea! Congratulations! How far along?"

"About 5 weeks, I just found out a few days ago."

"When's your first appointment?"

"It was for the end of the week, but change of plans."

"What do you mean?" Dee asked.

"Kirk and I are going back to Houston in a few days. I already talked to our clinical manager, I'm getting a transfer. I won't start my new job for another month or so."

"When was all this decided?" Andre shook his head. "Why would y'all even go back?"

"Our family is over there." I shrugged. "I wanna raise a baby with our families around. I won't lie, I don't have a good feeling about this."

"I don't either Lex.." Dee agreed. "But I wish yous the best of luck. You can call me if you need anything!"

"Thanks." I smiled. Dee took my hand into hers, smiling back at me.

"I got family in Dallas, if you call I'll be there quick." Andre laughed. "I'll be on the next plane."

"Y'all are the best." I laughed. "Thanks so much."

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* A few Days Later.. *

All of my things were packed into four suitcases. Today was the day we leave Miami. Our flight was at one, so we had a few hours before we had to leave. 

"Tyga and Chyna are gonna come over before we leave to say goodbye." Kirk sat next to me on the couch. I was biting my nails down to a stub. My hands had a little bit of a shake to them. "Are you okay?"

"I'm fine." I lied. 

"Nah, you're not. I can tell. Whats wrong?"

I shook my head, saying it was nothing. He rolled his eyes. 

"Tell me when you're ready." He gave me an attitude. 

"You already know why, so why ask?" I snapped back.

"What? You're nervous about Jaida, my mom? Really? Come on, she knows damn well I don't want shit to do with her! My mom don't talk to her anymore, shes gone. Get over it!" 

"I don't give a fuck about Jaida, I ain't worried about her. But we both know that with you back she might try and start shit! Don't fool yourself Kirk, she'll do anything if it means ruining your life! And all of this ain't cause of her, I'm more mature than that! I just have a horrible feeling about this, I think we're making a mistake. It's not the right time! Kirk, I'm serious... My gut is telling me this ain't gonna be the perfect new home, and we ain't gon live a perfect life there!"

"Nothing is perfect! You're just over reacting. You always do that." He turned, to talk away from me. I grabbed his arm, pulling him back to me. 

"You don't have to believe me, but don't be surprised when I'm right." I said with a cocky tone of voice.

I wasn't trying to sound so rude, but he was being thick headed. They say most of the time your gut is right, and I feel as if I'm right.

*Knock Knock *

I answered the door to see both Chyna and Tyga smiling at me. Chyna had a box of chocolates and a bottle of coca butter. 

"Come in." I smiled back, acting as if everything inside was okay. You could feel the tension in the ear as soon as you stepped over the threshold. 

"Lexus! Where the hell is my-" Kirk stormed into the room and noticed we had company. "Aye! Wassup man." He calmly made his way to Tyga, dapping him up. Then giving Chyna a hug. "Babe, do you know where my toothbrush is, I don't remember packing it." 

"I packed it already." I said softly. My arms folded across my chest. 

"I got you these." Chyna smiled, handing me the chocolate box and the lotion. It was dark chocolate with sea salt, my favorite. The lotion was for stretch marks. 

"Thank Hun, you didn't have to." 

"What are friends for?! I'm just being nice." 

Tyga took Kirk's arm and pulled him off to the side.

"I wonder what hes saying.." She said, looking over at me. 

"Me too.." I shrugged. "Do you want something to drink?" I asked to be polite. 

Earlier there was tension, now it feels even worse. I guess today just wasn't every ones day.