Million Dollar Dreams

Chapter 10

I couldn't sleep at all last night. I think I got about three or four hours of sleep, if that. All I could think about was Kirk and what happened last night with Jalen. All these thoughts racing through my mind, it was hard for me to sleep. I couldn't turn off my brain and relax.

I looked over at Kirk's side of the bed. I felt so alone without him next to me. It was almost seven thirty though, so I had to get out of bed. I put on black shorts and a white t-shirt, I had no desire to dress up really nice. I heard a knock on the bedroom door.

"You can come it." I said. Delia walked in, Jalen right behind her. When Jalen's eyes met mine, you could feel the tension that filled the room.

"Good morning." She gave me a hug. My eyes, though, were still connected to Jalen's. "You feeling alright?"

"Yeah.." I said, finally looking away. "I could be worse."

"We have to leave, are you ready?" I nodded yes.

"You know, you guys can stay with me for a while. I mean, if you want to, you don't have to. Your house is so big."

"I think we'll be okay." Jalen said. "Let's just go."

The car ride to the doctors was quiet. I kept my head turned towards the window, watching the cars as the sped by us. No matter what I did, I couldn't get the events from yesterday out of my mind. I knew by the way Jalen was acting that he couldn't either. I don't know how I didn't see it before, but did he actually have feelings for me?

I wasn't sure how I felt about it. I was flattered an all, but I felt that it was some what my own fault. I hope I didn't lead him on at all. Kirk wouldn't like that very much, but I didn't plan on telling him. I figured it was best to keep it hush hush, between Jalen and I. 

When we arrived, there were already two couples a head of us. One couple was married, I noticed their wedding bands. The wife looked like she was about to pop any second now. I thought it was funny how her husband looked so scared, he knew any day he was officially going to be a father. The other coupe was young, the girl didn't look older than twenty, he might have been twenty two or twenty three. She was small, her bump only a little bigger than mine. I figured our due dates were only a few weeks apart.

Delia tapped my shoulder.

"I'm so excited, you have no idea! I hope it's a girl." She smiled, trying to lighten the mood.

"I'm excited too, but I wish Kirk was here." I leaned back in the chair, closing my eyes, imagining Kirk being here. I knew he'd be saying how he knows its going to be a boy and start rambling off names he's been thinking about, and rubbing my stomach, talking to the baby like he always does. 

"I do too.. But we'll see him later on and bring him a sonogram. He'll be happy bout that. I know he wants a boy, but even if its a girl he's gonna be thrilled." she rested her hand on my shoulder. "Look on the bright side, at least Jalen is here."

I watched the married couple as they walked into office, Dr Burgos smiled and waved when she saw us. I'm not sure if i smiled back, i was so full of emotions that my body was numb. My thoughts were all over the place.

"You look tired." Jalen said, sitting down next to me. I noticed that his mom had gotten up and walked out of the waiting room.

"I am.. Where'd she go?"

"Bathroom.. Look, I just wanted to apologies for last night."

"You don't have too. It's fine."

"I was up all night thinking about it, I feel bad... I'm not trying to ruin anything between you and Kirk, I hope you know that. I'm happy he's with you, I really am, but-"