What is Meant to be, Will Be

Chapter 16

The next morning I was woken for pre-rounds by an intern I didn't know. She was on Dr. Montgomery's service so I wasn't going to ask to many questions. Later though during round Dr. Bailey came in with Addison and let me know everything that was going on.

"Well Meredith it looks like you are on strict bed rest until you are at least 6 months along. We may have to keep you on bed rest the entire pregnancy because your body isn't taking expanding this quickly very well."

"So what do I do about work? I mean, how can I keep up with the rest of the interns?"

"That is part of the reason you are having so many issues. Because the extra stress from being a surgical intern is still so new and you are now carrying twins, it's to much for your body to handle."

"So I have to retake my intern year? What if I studied, stayed in a wheelchair and went to the skills lab, did charts and post op notes?"

"As long as Dr. Bailey is okay with it I am too."

Dr. Bailey gave me a look that I am not sure what it meant. It wasn't friendly, but it wasn't mean. It's like she actually cares about my careers.

"I can allow that. But no observing. I can get you surgical tapes but not allowed in the gallery."

"Thank you so much. I will do everything I can to make you happy you did this."

They left and I had a smile on my face. I could still be a surgeon. Just a little restricted is all. And that didn't bother me too much.

Cristina came in and delivered the charts Bailey wanted me to do, which honestly was way to easy. I managed to finish them all in just under an hour. When Cristina came by to pick them up she just sat in the visitors chair.

"Your mother is driving me insane. She doesn't seem to think I'm doing my job well enough. She keeps questioning me!"

I just sat there with a smile on my face. I knew what she wanted me to say but I wasn't going to say it. Why should I? I knew exactly how she felt.

"You going to say anything or just let me suffer?"

"Suffer away. You see, I dealt with that for 18 years in high school. After that I could walk away from it but I still got it. I don't know how to deal with this kind. She was all Alzheimer's-y while I was her 'doctor'."

"So you can't help me."

"Nope."

"Well then her wish has been granted. Mommy wants to see her daughter."

"I really hate you right now."

"I love you too."

Cristina got me into my wheelchair and took me to my mother's room. I did want to see her, I just wanted to work some more.

"Hey baby girl how are you?"

"Bedridden. Now will you please stop second guessing Cristina and let her do her job?"

"I just want to make sure she isn't missing anything. I don't want to be stuck here any longer than I need to be."

"And you think I want to? I am stuck in this hospital probably until I become a mother. I can't be me. I can't work. That is hard for me, you of all peopl should understand that."

"I do sweetheart. I'm sorry, I guess I just feel like I have missed so much of your life already I don't want to miss anymore."

"I get it Mom, but I just want out of here."

"You need to be careful. You need to take care of those kids inside of you. Next thing you know it will be three in the morning and you will be making bottles and changing diapers."

"This is very true. How are you?"

And just like that we were back to loving each other. Like it had been the past few days, and I liked it that way. There were no strings attached, and I still can't believe I am stuck here for nine months. That just drives me crazy thinking about it. 

I left Mom's room around noon so I could head back and watch surgical tapes that Bailey had brought me. And you know it wouldn't be Bailey if she hadn't left little quizzes for you to take after each one. I guess that is what I get for sleeping with the attending. 

After I had watched only two of the six tapes Derek came in with dinner. He had gone and gotten takeout at my favorite restraunt. Oh how did I love this man.

"Well since you can't go it it I thought I would bring it to you."

He leaned over and kissed me, it was a long drawn out kiss that made me want to kill him as soon as he pulled away. 

"Thank you for dinner. How was your day?" 

We did the couple thing, talking about work and how some people were more stupid then others. Then we did the surgeon thing. He would walk me through a surgery and I would tell the next step. Thankfully it wasn't a real surgery or it would have taken much longer then necessary. 

"So would you like me to stay with you tonight? Or can I go and keep preparing the surprise I have for you?"

"You are staying, and I hate surprises. What are you doing?"

"I can't tell it's a secret. But you will love it."

Before I had the chance to argue he crawled into my bed, wrapped his arm around me, and kissed me. I was not in the mood to argue so we just laid there in each others arms until we fell asleep. I can't believe I finally have this, I never thought I would. 

I was woken up by Derek moving me, I wasn't sure what time it was.

"Hey, where are you going?"

"I have a trauma in the pit. I will be back as soon as I can."

"Alright, hurry back." 

He kissed me goodbye and I waited until I was sure he wasn't coming right back in to go back to sleep. Married to a surgeon, how much better can it get?