What is Meant to be, Will Be

Chapter 10

God damn pregnant woman hormones. I have never puked at the sight of blood and now this McBaby is making me bad at my job. Wait did I just call it McBaby? What is the world coming to?

I changed into scrubs and rushed back down to the pit. I found Derek in trauma two, the guy had guys with nails and glass in his head. He had fallen out of a five story building and landed on some construction materials. The portable x-rays showed they didn’t damage too much brain matter but he was definitely going to need surgery.

“Someone get Dr. Grey two pairs of gloves, we don’t want her ring to cut through her glove.”

“Derek, I can take it off and put it on after surgery. Don’t treat me like a child.”

“Like hell if you will take that off your finger. Put the gloves on.”

I did as Derek told me, only because I wanted the surgery, and like hell if he was going to get away with this at home. I don’t understand why he is a brain surgeon and be so brainless at the same time. We took him up to the OR floor and scrubbed.

“What are you doing?”

“Derek, I love you, I love the ring, but I’m not wearing it in surgery. My decision, my finger. Okay?”

He laughed. I knew he was smiling behind his surgical mask. Since he hadn’t began washing his hands yet he pulled the mask down and kissed me. Why does he do that? Make me feel drunk right before cutting into someone. Like I said, brainless.  

After surgery I took our patient to recovery while Derek notified his family. I had him in his new room and I went to find Derek. I saw him talking to the wife and kids, and he was doing it so easily, like it was a second nature. I knew, in that moment, he would be a great dad.

After family was in the patients room I couldn’t keep my eyes off of him. We were outside the interns locker room and he was turning to go to the attending’s locker room when I grabbed his arm and pulled him into kiss me. One good thing about pregnancy hormones, I am always in the mood. I felt his lips pull into a smile as we continued to kiss. Before I knew it, he pulled away, laughed, and went to change. This really was going to be nine months of living hell.

3:30 A.M. My phone rings. It’s Cristina. What in the hell does she want?

“Meredith you need to get your ass in here!”

“Cristina, it’s 3:30 in the morning. My pager hasn’t gone off and I’m two months pregnant. I can’t just hop out of bed because you want me too.”

“Mere it’s your mom!”

Shit. I hung up the phone and got out of bed as fast as I could. I moved so fast I woke Derek.

“What’s going on? Meredith what are you doing?”

“Derek mom is in the ER! Cristina just called me! I can’t just sit here! We may not have had the best relationship but like hell if I’m going to sit here and let the chance slip out of my hands.”

“Okay, but Meredith you can’t drive like this. Hormones racing and you being upset, let me drive.”

“You have two minutes to get your ass in the car before I leave without you.”

I ran down to the car, tears in my eyes. She can’t die before she meets her grandchild. 

We got to the hospital and Cristina was waiting for me, and her face didn’t show good news.

“Meredith they took her to MRI, her abdomen is rigid, they are worried about her appendix and her liver.”

I fell into Derek’s arms. Her appendix, easy enough, her liver, transplant list. Months, maybe even years of waiting for a new liver. Even if its cancer, radiation, cemo, and surgery. MRI was going to take an hour and they sure as hell weren’t going to let Derek or I back there. So I had to do the next best thing. I had to call the chief.

Richard Weber and my mom did their internship and residency together. They had an affair in the process, and that is why my parents split up, but I knew no one was going to make him leave the radiology booth.

“Derek what can I do for you?”

“Ellis Grey was checked into the hospital half an hour ago. She has had Alzheimer’s for the past four years and is now completely lucid. They won’t let Meredith or I back there and with Meredith being pregnant we don’t need her blood pressure higher than it should be.”

“Derek it doesn’t matter that I’m pregnant, I mean it does but, she’s my mom!”

He took me in his arms while I was pressed against his chest. I knew he was right, but that wasn’t my only concern right now.

“Meredith I’ll go check on your mom.”

I nodded my head and heard the chief walking down the hall. How in the hell could this be happening to me? Is this my punishment for sleeping with another woman’s husband? Or is this just because I didn’t want to have the best relationship with my mom when I was young?  

We sat in her room while we waited for Richard to come back with her MRI results. I sat on Derek’s lap, head on his chest, tears still in my eyes. By this time it was seven and Derek and I already had taken the day off.

“It’s not her appendix,”

Richard said as he came into the room.

“but there is a suspicious mass on her liver that we need to biopsy. We scheduled the procedure for 7:30 so we need to get her prepped. I will page Derek when I’m done.”

We left the room and I turned to Derek,

“Derek, I don’t want to die alone. I don’t want to be like my mother and never marry the love of my life. Let’s go to city hall, right now, and get this over with.”

“Fine, but we are buying rings afterwards.”

I smiled, he was trying to make me laugh, and honestly it felt nice to have someone care this much about how I was feeling.