Keeping My Distance

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Sitting up slowly I turn to face Kol,

"What?" My heart seemed to have shattered.

Kol looks up at me, unfazed by what he just said to me.

"You can't kill my brother Kol," I say to him angrily now, my temper spiking in an effort to protect my brother.

"Yes I can. And I think I have too. You don't understand. Your twin brother and annoying sister along with those Salvatore brothers want the cure. And you can't get the cure without raising Silas. And if we raise Silas, hell will be unleashed on earth. And being immortal, you can see why this is a problem for me," Kol says calmly, like I will just understand and accept this.

His psychotic patterns were coming up again, and though I knew in the back of my mind that it was inevitable, I was hoping that I changed him. Even if it was some small part of him.
I was hoping that I changed him.
I was hoping he wasn't wanting to kill all the people he had to just because he wanted to.

Kol stands up and take my hand,

"Evelyn, this doesn't change our love."

I pull my hand away from him, which was the wrong thing to do, his eyes become angry and wiped of any emotion he held for me.
Any kindness, any remorse, any love was gone.

"Kol, I won't be with you, if you plan on killing my brother," I say slowly, hoping he tries to understand my own side.

"I thought you understood me, Evelyn," Kol says dangerously.

My heart thuds quickly, out of fear as he stalks towards me backing me into the wall of my bedroom,

"W-What do you mean?" I ask my voice quivering.

Kol's eyes are dark now, and horrifyingly evil,

"I'm immortal. I will not live on an earth where Silas has been raised. I won't allow hell to be released. Your brother is the key. I will gladly live with the hunters curse for hundreds of years if I have to until the next hunter comes along, then I will kill him, and the next hunter and the next. Because Silas," Kol's face is inches from mine,

"Will never be raised. Got it?"

I push myself away from the wall, tears threatening my eyes but I push them back, and I push Kol in the chest, my anger outweighing my fear, as my heart is breaking, 

"You are by far the worst mistake I've ever made Kol Mikaelson. Because we are over. We are nothing. If you kill my brother, my twin, the only one who's kept me sane the past two years, if you kill him, I will never forgive you. But if you love me..like you say you do," I see his eyes soften the slightest bit,

"Then you'll let Jeremy live. You'll forget about the cure, and just be with me. We'll out run the hell on earth together because when I see a future, you're in it Kol. You're all I see! And I've never felt that with anyone!"

Kol sighs sadly and takes my head in his hands and kisses my forehead,

"Jeremy has to die Eve."

"You told me I wasn't disposable, Kol. And I am trying really hard to believe that right now," My voice comes out shaky as fear grips my hear a the thought of him leaving me. He has made countless promises o never abandon me.

Kol's eyes become soft as he looks down a me, 

"Evelyn, you are he one good thing that has ever happened to me in his damned eternal life. I cannot lose you, and I will no stand for Silas being a threat to you and our life together."