I miss You

chapter 7

Diane
I woke up to my alarm. I wasn't feeling today but I refuse to stay in this house. I looked at my phone and saw that I had missed called from Morsea, I'm sure I would hear about it at school but I just need avoid him because he an read me way too well.

I feel disgusted and disgusting. Even when I was fatter things like would happen. Sad but at times I'm use to it. He won't let me have a boyfriend, not really sure what that's about when he's the only makes that disrespect me in such an aweful way, *sigh* I jus....gco

"Dee, hurry your ass up. Got a meeting with coach before class"
"I'm coming (spoken sadly)"

If only his coach knew, if only the world knew.... But there is no way in hell I want people to look at me and judge me like I'm some slimey Grimey hoe who sleeps with her brother.

I have thought about taking my own life, I have even thought of a way to do it so that its murder. I just haven't had the courage to do it yet. But its comign and soon. I'm tired of living. It's getting old.
As we ride to school its silence on my end while the bastard talks on his phone to one of his hoes and telling her he needs her mouth work after school.

I just want to throw up. How could these females really be attracted to such an evil ugly person. I mean he is not ugly but his attitude and actions towards me makes him in my eyes a monster. And just like the movies this monster needs to die.

We arrive at school and I go to get out and he grabs my arm. It feels like my skin is burning just from a innocent touch because the majority of his touches are fueled with evilness. I turn around and glare at him......

"Get a ride with Sea(say) I got shit to do after school"
"K"

It's all I muster, because I just want to break down. I slowly feel my should dying. My mama works so hard and she loves us so much I can't be the one to break her heart, by her finding out her 1st born is a sadistic ass hole. I walk in the school and see the crew, and guess who's back...
Yep you guessed it. Good ole Cyn. I mean she's cool and all but she keep fucking over my bestie and he keep fuxking over her. They really just need to leave each other alone.

I don't feel like really talking so I say hey and keep it moving. I'll get question later but right now I really don't care. As I try and walk off I'm stopped with a arm around my waist. It wasn't tight but I flinched at the lite pressure of it from ym brother punching me....

"Dee, what's wrong?"

Hearing his voice couldn't turn around and look at him because he would look in my eyes and that would be the end of it.

"I'm fine, I gotta pee realllllly bad I'll talk to y'all later"

Thank God he let me go without any further questions.....

Please let the day go by fast.....

Morsea
Damn I didn't get a chance to call Dee this morn cu my ass overslept. I saw her walk in and automatically knew something was wrong. She saw my arm around Cyn and I saw the look on her face.

She said hey to everyone and kept walking. I could see she looked like she had been crying. Which made my chest hurt, because she always tries to hide everything with a smile. I let her walk a few feet from the crew because I have a thought of what can be wrong. And true enough when I placed my arm around her to stop her she flinched.

That pissed me off so bad I wanted to instantly find out why he keeps beating on her. And he always hits her where it can't be seen. She won't let me tell her mama. She says she won't be the one to break her heart. I just to protect her.......

"Dee, what's wrong?"
"I'm fine, I gotta pee realllllly bad I'll talk to y'all later"
"Ok, make sure you meet me after school"
"I'll text you in class"
"Iight, love you bae"
"Love you too hubs"

And she walked off. But I already knew she wasn't ok. Today her face looked like she was dying inside. She looked weak. Like the real Dee was missing. And if she dies so do I.........

God hell her find a way out....
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Hello my beautiful butterflies. Ok so I know this book is a serious one. But I wrote this story for a reason. A few of them actually but the main one is, when going thru abuse sexual or any other kind please tell someone.

Don't continue to suffer in silence. You are not the only one in the world going thru it. You won't be judged and you will have more support than you ever thought.

More will be revealed as the story goes along. Y'all know the drill enjoy, vote, comment.

Love you all.