I miss You

chapter 28

Diane
Today I go see Dr Hunter. I need to speak to her but I don't know where to begin. I've been distancing myself from Morsea and the crew and they not taking it lightly. I don't blame them we thicker than thieves. I do talk to scoop this and he doesn't know my suicidal thoughts have come back. I've been hell depressed and super sick. The worse the depression the worse I feel.

I've been avoiding Danny and that is not easy. He's back to tryna come in my room. I just want to cut and feel better. Or take meds and zone out. We at school and once again I have succeeded in dodging everybody.

The depression has me gaining weight again and I feel ugly. I just want to die. Honestly I don't know how to feel. I have time before my appointment so I went home and changed clothes. I just threw on jogging pants and a black t. It's kinda big so the weight I gained has t shown.

I was about to walk out my room when. I was forced back in. Good thing I landed on my bed because that shit would have hurt and bruised my back. When I look up it's the one and only asshole...... Danny.....

"well dont you look sexy. "
"leave me alone I have to go"
"I see you getting thick again, Just how I like it"
"Danny stop. Don't touch me I gotta go"
"I just wanna taste you"
"get off you nasty bastard"

With them words he slap me so hard my head was spinning. He ripped my pants down the middle and stuck his finger halfway in and then licked it. He's so fucking sick. How did I get out with a brother like this.

"see this my pussy, always has been and always will be. Now ima. Take. Your. Virginity."

He said in between licks. At this point I'm sobbing trying to figure out something to do.

"no no no. Not now. I have an appointment and if I don't go they call mommie"
"mmmmm you taste so good. Bet. Ill get that ass when you get back"

I got up to get another pair of joggers and ran in the bathroom to wash him off my cat. He slapped my ass as I went in and walked out my room laughing. As the water ran and I washed up I cried.

Scoop then came in and asked why I wasn't ready yet. Told him I fell asleep my bed. I walked out the bathroom dressed. He looked at me with a raise eyebrow.....

"sis you OK? "
"I'm fine. Let's go before I'm late"

I smiled but he looked like he didn't believe me. I just wanted to let it go. He must have felt that, because he walked out the house with me and he locked the door. By the time he got in I was in my seatbelt and looking out the window. He moved my face and I felt the car jerk.

"WTF happened to your face? "
"it's nothing let it go. Me and Danny fight all the time"
"if I find out its anything else and cuzn or not ima kill that nigga"
"let it go please"

The car ride was silent except for my sniffles. I know he mad but I can't. I didn't want to start a family war and I do that want drama. I just want..... Ugh IDK what I want. I want it to be like it was when Mitchell was here.

(Dr Hunter office)

"Hey Dee "
"hey Mrs Niq"
"you gone tell me why you have a mark in your face"
"me and my brother got into a fight"
"does this happened often?"
"sometimes"

She writes something down and I feel hot tears running down my. Face and I feel the anxiety coming. I get up and run to the bathroom and she follows and I throw up lunch from earlier. This is the type shit I've been dealing with for a few weeks. I just want to be normal.

"do you think it's OK for your brother to fight you and youre pregnant?"
"what do you mean, I'm not"
"the last few times you have been here your weight has picked up"
"yeah that's the depression"
"Dee, look at me"

I look at her with tears in my eyes that have come back with full force. And she holds me. We sitting on the floor, I'm glad the bathroom is super cleaned.

"I know someone in this building we can go to now before you leave. They will give you a test and I can't say anything because of patient doctor confidential records., but we need to find out"

All I could do was node my head. I got up rinsed my mouth out and then followed Dr Hunter to the 2nd floor. We went straight to the back and I pissed in a cup. My hands were shaking as we waited for the results. The doctor came in with a small smile and a sympathetic eyes, and then I knew my life was over......

"Diane, you are indeed pregnant. Now lay back and let's see how far you are. It's seems you are 7weeks"

I node my head then we walk back to her office. I couldn't say anything. What would Morsea say, the crew would trip. School would really be horrible. So many thoughts ran thru my head. I was cut outta my thoughts by Dr Hunter......

"Dee, I'm here with you all the way. "
"yes ma'am thank you"
"what are you going to do, and fighting your brother isn't gone work"
"IDK and yeah I know. Ill figure something out"

I exited out the building walking side by side with my cousin. Scoop looked at me when we got in the car but I would meet his gaze. He started the car and drove off heading towards my house. He walked me in and thank God Danny wasn't there. I went an djumoed in the shower and then laid in my bed.

Thinking about the future and how my life was over. Scoop had handle something with the crew I didn't ask no care at the moment. Once left, I went to sleep thinking and crying until I fell asleep with one thought......

I can't tell anyone about this...
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Hello my beautiful butterflies. Sorry it takes me so long to update. This book is emotional for me as I have stated before. So bare with me.

Oh shit Dee pregnant and scared

Danny still up-to his bitchass antics

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