I choose you.

Chapter 17 Bryce

Why couldn't I have had a normal marriage, where the husband comes home and the wife hugs him and asks him about work and have the most amazing night? Why couldn't I have had married a husband that would come home and play with the children and have the most incredible family?
Of course when I first met Seth he was the guy of my dreams, he had an amazing smile that I would die for, his eyes would just melt me into a puddle. Now I can't even look at his face. The days are passing by and I feel absolutely miserable, I can't stop time or reverse it, I can only just hope that it will get better.
Chris came over last night at the exact moment I was fighting with Seth. I didn't want him to witness that after all I told him. I feel terrible and I have spent the entire night just thinking about his expression on his face when he left.
He's whispered in my ear something I have kept thinking about.
Call me if you need anything.
I have been sleeping in the guest room the entire spring. The time is getting nearer and nearer for me to take the plane to the filming sessions for Jurassic world and I need all the energy I can get, if I can find any. I grab my glass off the table and take a sip of my wine. I stare into nothing, the wall, I haven't gotten much time to myself lately and I just wish for a day out!
As I take the last sip to my wine I get up from the table and head to the kitchen. If there was an easy way to get through life without having to go through shit like this, I would take it. I feel numb and I haven't spoken to Seth since last night. I take the time I have to myself in the meantime Seth is at work so I can pack my baggage for Tomorrow. I take pretty much everything I own and put it into the suitcase. I grab Chris coat and put it on top of the bed so I don't forget it. It will be a long day tomorrow.
I realise I don't have much clothes or even a swimsuit for Hawaii, I decide to go to the mall to get something. I don't really like shopping not even for myself and less for others. The mall is always crowded and since I live in LA it's worse when it comes to summer.
I check the time just to make sure I still
have enough time to make my suitcase and finish shopping.
I fish for the car keys before heading out, I don't take much, I just bring my wallet, my phone and the keys. I practically run to the car and turn it on. The quicker I do this the better. I head straight towards the mall and hope that I will find a good parking spot. I used to come shopping all the time with Seth, he would choose the cheapest presents and I would have to agree, they weren't always the best but good enough. Of course everything has changed now, I can't even look at his face. I turn the radio on and listen to Maroon five the whole way. The roads are getting more chaotic by the day. I know I should be used to it but it is still something the catches my attention.
I arrive at the mall and park it near the entrance, the perfect place so that I can access it. I lock the car behind me and head inside, I look for some sort of swimsuit store where I can try on something. I walk around a little bit and finally find a store full with bikinis, tankinis, full suit, etc. I walk inside to find a nice lady standing by the door.
- hi can I help you with anything? Finding a size?- the kind lady asks me.
- don't worry about it. I'm just going to look around for now.- I say and she nods.
I take a look around the shop, I pick out a few in size S to try on. I notice that the store is slightly full so I quickly make me way to the changing rooms to try on what I've picked out.
The lady at the desk asks me how many items I have and I count them. When I answer she tells me to go into the third room down the hall, I do as I'm told and close the door behind me. I hang the swimsuits up on the hanger and look in the mirror. I begin to realise I look like shit but ignore it and get undressed. I try on a navy blue swimsuit that was open slightly from the back, I look in the mirror and notice it's a little big on me so I try on a different one. I put on a grey swimsuit that looks really good on me but I don't like it that much and decide to leave it. I grab the last one which was a black one with a ribbon a the back so I can tie it around my neck. Instantly I fall in love with it and choose this one. I get dressed, take out my wallet before heading to the check out desk.
- is this all? - a tall blonde woman asks me as she swipes the bar code.
- yes, it is.- I say so she begins to put it into a bag.
-that will be 50 dollars please. - I nod, a bit stunned at the pricing but I still pay. She hands me my bag and I head out.
I go through a few stores where I decide to buy some pants and shirts that will be great for the Hawaii weather.
By the time I was done it was late and I was starving so I decided to stop and get something to eat. I get a salad to go and walk to my car. On the way there I bump into someone.
- so sorry!- I look up and notice it's my brother .
-hey! How are you?- I ask him, my brother and I are a bit close but I haven't spoken to him in a while.
-I'm great! You look amazing, and I heard about the Jurassic world casting..  Congratulations Bryce! I meant to call you earlier This week but I keep forgetting.
-thank you so much, I head off for Hawaii tomorrow so I'm so excited.
- that's great. I'm so happy for you.. How's the family?- he asks me and I gulp. How am I supposed to tell him that it's fine when it isn't, nothing is going well.
- they are ok. Hey I'm really sorry but I have to head off to start packing but let's meet up sometime.- he nods and we say goodbye. I get to my car and put the things in my trunk. I feel my phone  vibrate I check the screen.
Chris
I unlock my screen to read the message.
Bryce, I'm just wondering how you are, and I don't want you to feel awkward around me. I don't want to be a bigger load on you. Just know that you can call me of you need to talk. I hope that you are ok and I'll see you tomorrow.

The words make me feel warm again. Chris is so sweet. I get into my car and drive as fast as possible. I can't wait for tomorrow, the start of Jurassic World and I'll get to see Chris

A/n
Hey guys!! Really sorry I didn't update or even make any holiday special chapters. I will update the next chapter tomorrow I swear. It will be great. I hope you guys liked this chapter and had amazing vacations.