Saving Perrie (Completed)

~ Chapter 37 ~

~ Chapter 37 ~

Someone please tell me this was some kind of dream. This wasn't actually happening. Zayn wasn't actually kissing me was he?

But he was. I was smart enough to know this was reality. And the worst part? I was letting him do it.

I pushed him off of me. "Zayn!" I gasped and wiped my lips with my arm.

Shit now there's pink lipstick all over it. I suppose that was a little bit dramatic..

"Perrie, I-I don't know what came over me I- I'm sorry." He bit his lip.

Damn that lip bite...

"God Zayn, do the words broken up mean nothing to you?" I snapped.

Zayn gave me a long, cold look. "You know what Perrie? Those words suck okay! And they don't mean anything to me! I don't care that were broken up! I still love you Perrie Edwards, and nothing is ever going to change that. I'll do anything to win you back. Why can't you just see that?"

I could feel my pulse quicken. My heart felt like it was going to burst. I've never seen Zayn feel so strongly for something. Or someone I should say.

I didn't know what to think, more importantly, how the hell do I respond? Hearing Zayn say he still loves me makes me so much more confused than I already was to begin. Wasn't he just on a date with another girl, for god's sake? This boy made my mind hurt.

The worst thing about me? I don't handle confusion very well and when I'm confused I begin to cry. Which is exactly what happened next.

Zayn pulled me into a warm embrace. "No Perrie stop, the last thing I wanted to do was to make you cry. I've already done that once. I'm so sorry." He wiped my tears with his thumbs like he always does.

"Its not your fault Zayn. Its a bad habit. I always cry when I'm confused." I said in attempt to make him feel less guilty.

"What are you confused about?" He asked.

Boys could be so stupid sometimes..

"You!" I shouted in his face.

Zayn jumped backwards a few inches. Whoops, I didn't mean to startle him.

"When I hear you say you still love me! I just I don't know how I feel about you right now Zayn. I-I need space. I would like to think I still love you, but I just I don't know right now. I'm sorry."

I placed my head into my hands and sighed. This boy gave me a headache.

Zayn sighed. "Perrie if you needed space, you should have just asked for it. I would wait years for you, you know that."

The thing was, I didn't know that. That was probably the sweetest thing he's ever said to me. No, the sweetest thing any guy has ever said to me.

I kissed him softly on the cheek. "Thanks Zayn."

He just stood there awkwardly and smiled brightly at me.

"So I don't mean to be awkward but did you come here to kiss me or?"

Zayn blushed a dark shade of pink.

Aww, I've never seen him do that.

"No actually I came here to give you this." He said handing me my purse. You left it at the coffee shop. Hey that guy was a real douchebag huh?"

"Oh thank you!" I said clutching my purse. "And I know, total creep. But hey thanks for coming to the rescue and putting your uhh date on pause."

Zayn nervously scratched the back of his head, what he always did when he nervous. "Yeah sorry about that, I was trying to move on but I think we've all established I don't want to."

I tried to hide my smile. "We're not together, it's okay for you to, you know date other people. But is bad that I'm

happy things didn't work out between you too?"

Zayn chuckled. "No, you can be ecstatic if you want. But hey I'm gonna head back to my place, I'll see you at school okay?"

I smiled. "Okay bye. Thanks again."

He grinned back at me and waved goodbye.

I shut my front door and leaned my back up against it like the girls always did in the movies. I couldn't help it, something about Zayn just gave me butterflies.

I was still incredibly confused, but knowing I could take my time made me feel better. But would time bring the right choice?

It's days like these where I needed Jade.

I was sick of it. I know she owes me an apology, I know I said I didn't want to be the bigger person this time, but I can't stand it. I need her in my life.

I dialed her cell. It kept ringing. Come on Jade pick up! I paced back and forth.

"Perrie?" She asked.

It was so nice to hear her voice.

"Jade hi so I -"

"Perrie you're lucky I even answered this phone call. Whatever the hell you want you better make it pretty fast."

"No Jade, this calls for an apology."

"I don't owe you one! Look, Jesy, Leigh Anne, and I are kind of busy singing and stuff so if you would hang up that would be great." I could hear them laughing in the background.

Click. She hung up before I could even say another word. Before I could tell her that I was the one that needed to apologize.

So her Jesy and Leigh Anne did make up after all. I couldn't believe I was admitting this but Jesy was right....

My sorry blonde ass does feel left out.

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Aww Perrie :(

Okay so kind of a short chapter. Sorry about that!

But, I'm LOVING summer vacation so I'm actually going to try doing updates as often as I can. Woo!

Just not tomorrow. Tomorrows my birthday hehe :). I'll be 15. How irrelevant.

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Stay dashing,

ILY

~ Julia