The Deep Blue

10. Unexpected

 
I wouldn't have mind losing everything for the sake of my happiness and sanity.  At least that would make her happy; to see me completely out of the picture for good. I wanted to just simply leave this island and my past behind and just start a new life with him. He was the anchor that kept me from going insane, and someday I hope to find this merman and make him mine forever. I just hope that he could wait until I find the light in the tunnel one day

I took another look at the black mark on my arm and looked back at Takeshi, still fast asleep. As I got up from my spot and walked over to the mantle and took a look at a picture of Grandpa next to Father 20 years ago when the company was struggling to survive during the war. Something in then picture looked off to me as Father had something in his hand that I could barely see. I looked like a crystal but yet it did not look like those that I have researched. 

I then told myself not to get into any of this and just simply mind my own affairs. As the lights then cut back on I looked back over at Takeshi and Riku who were still sound asleep.

Deciding to go into my bedroom and grab a couple more blankets and the electric heater, I heard a knock on the door. I thought to myself who it would be so careless as to come to my place during a time like this. Especially with the snow almost reaching up to my window, as I heard another knock at the door. I walked over to try and look through the peephole and there a saw a woman with blue hair. She had sunglasses on with a heavy coat and a box in her hand, wondering to myself who might this woman be as I quivered in fear.

Could this might be her, the woman who abandoned me long ago? The woman who I longed to rescue me from that home long ago. Has she finally come to make amends with me for not being there like a mother is suppose to do.

"Mom is that really you?" I asked her through the door.

I felt my heart almost stop as I heard her sob a little through the door, sliding my back against the door I never thought that she would ever come. As tears went down my cheek as I looked up at the ceiling. I wanted to open the door and welcome her with open arms but something stopped me from doing that. It was as if; my body had paralysis I just could not move from that spot.

"Mom, I forgive you for leaving" I cried out wiping a few tears from my eyes.

It became too much to handle for me as I heard her sit the box by the door. As I faced the door I placed my left hand on the knob, contemplating on whether or not turning it. As it would have changed everything going forward in my life, maybe I could have been happy with Mom being a part of my life for the first.

With the other hand I placed it on the door as I felt her hand on the other side of the door. It did not feel like I was pressing against the door but touching her warm hand. I wondered what it would be like to finally see her and spend my days at the beach, celebrating birthdays, and being there for me when I am alone.

"I....I am sorry Mom I just cant" I cried out letting go of the knob. "I don't want you to see me like this" 

I kneeled to the floor as more tears followed, I did not want my first memory of her being like this. I just could not muster up enough courage to at least turn the knob and just see her. That would be one of the things that I would regret later on in the distant future.

 Then at that moment I heard her walk away from the front door, going to wherever she came from. As I continued to cry out for her I then got to my feet and swung the door open wide. Letting the cold wind come all the inside of my home as I tried to chase after her.

Maybe I could try and change the future for the better....

See you at the Next Wave...