Meeting Magcon

Chapter 37: Drama

I woke up around 2am and couldn't go back to sleep. So I went out to the pool and put my feet in. I've been thinking about my life a lot like how so much has changed.

Today is one year since my mom died and Magcon. But I really don't know if I'll be up for Magcon. I decided to get it off my mind by singing. (song on the side. This is what I imagine Sam's voice as.)

"For all the times that you rain on my parade
And all the clubs you get in using my name
You think you broke my heart, oh girl for goodness sake
You think I'm crying on my own, well I ain't

And I didn't wanna write a song
Cause I didn't want anyone thinking I still care
I don't but, you still hit my phone up
And baby I be movin' on
And I think you should be somethin'
I don't wanna hold back, maybe you should know that

My mama don't like you and she likes everyone
And I never like to admit that I was wrong
And I've been so caught up in my job, didn't see what's going on
But now I know, I'm better sleeping on my own

Cause if you like the way you look that much
Oh, baby, you should go and love yourself
And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin'
You should go and love yourself

And when you told me that you hated my friends
The only problem was with you and not them
And every time you told me my opinion was wrong
And tried to make me forget where I came from

And I didn't wanna write a song
Cause I didn't want anyone thinking I still care
I don't but, you still hit my phone up
And baby I be movin' on
And I think you should be somethin'
I don't wanna hold back, maybe you should know that

My mama don't like you and she likes everyone
And I never like to admit that I was wrong
And I've been so caught up in my job, didn't see what's going on
But now I know, I'm better sleeping on my own

Cause if you like the way you look that much
Oh, baby, you should go and love yourself
And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin'
You should go and love yourself

Then I heard someone behind me singing
For all the times that you made me feel small
I fell in love, now I feel nothin' at all
And never felt so low when I was vulnerable
Was I a fool to let you break down my walls?

Cause if you like the way you look that much
Oh, baby, you should go and love yourself
And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin'
You should go and love yourself
Cause if you like the way you look that much
Oh, baby, you should go and love yourself
And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin'
You should go and love yourself

I turned around to see Sammy. He smiled at me and walked over to me. "Can't sleep?" he asked "no you?" i asked and he shook his head. "That was amazing by the way." I said and he smiled.

"It was only amazing because you were singing it." he said and I blushed. "No you were equally as amazing as I was." I said and he laughed.

"So about yesterday.." he said and I laughed. "You almost called me daddy didn't you?" he said and I laughed and nodded. "Just because I love with the whole Magcon group doesn't me I stopped fangirling." I said and he laughed.

"Okay Sam." he said. "I really like you Samantha." he said and I screamed in my head. "Awh that's really sweet but you know I'm with Shawn." I said and he frowned. "I know." he said.

We looked at eachother and I looked at his lips then his eyes and we did the same. We leaned in and kissed. I pulled away a few seconds later. "Sam I'm so sorry I didn't mea-" he said but I cut him off.

"It's fine don't worry about it." I said. "I'm gonna go try and get some sleep. I'll see you later." I told Sammy and got up and walked back inside the house.

What have I done.. I asked myself as I walked up stairs.

Morning:
I woke up to a lot of yelling. I walked down stairs quietly and heard Sammy and Shawn yelling. "You kissed my girlfriend!??!" Shawn yelled. Oh shit..

"Man I'm sorry I told you I didn't mean it!" Sammy said. I walked to the living room and all eyes were on me. Shawn looked at me with tears in his eyes.

Shawn I..I'm sor-" i started to say. "Did you kiss back?" he asked. "Sha-" "Did you kiss back Samantha yes or no!?" I yelled. "Yes.." I said almost in a whisper.

"We're done." Shawn said quietly and walked upstairs without saying a word.
Sammy walked over to me. "Sam I'm sor-" he started to say but I cut him off. "Ugh Sammy why did you have to fucking kiss me?? I just lost Shawn because of you!" I said and he stayed silent.

"I'm leaving if I'm not back in 2 hours for Magcon just leave me. I don't care." I said and ran out of the house. I heard all the boys yelling for me but I just grabbed my penny board an rode off.

I ended up at my moms grave. "Mommy I miss you so much I would do anything to see you again." I said and started crying. "This is all my fault I shouldn't have ever stayed with the guys." I said

"We would have died together and I wouldn't have to miss you so much." I said and hugged her grave. "I just lost Shawn today. I made the biggest mistake of my life yesterday." I said wiping my tears.

I looked at my phone. I've been here for almost 3 hours. I decided that I would ride my penny board to where Magcon was and try to get Shawn back.