My Bully/Love

two

One week later, after school, Spring break starts, and the Dolans come to our house again.
Grayson: "so all four of us are going to go to California"
me: "why?"
Grayson: "because we invited Jack, and Ethan invited you."
Jack: "when are we going?"
Ethan: "tomorrow at seven am"
Jack: "ok"
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The Next Day:
I wear shorts and a top since it's going to be hot in Cali.
I end up sitting next to Grayson, my joy. Ethan and Jack are behind us,
After we start flying, Grayson notices my scars on my arms and legs and is looking at them, and once I notice, I cover up.
Grayson: "I saw those. why?"
me: "I don't know? maybe because I get bullied and abused at school every single day. I have no friends except for Ethan, and the entire school makes fun of me."
Grayson: "so that's all because of me?"
me: "yes. and I don't tell anyone."
Grayson's eyes then fill up and he touches the scars, rubbing each one.
Grayson: "I am so sorry Ashley. I really mean it."
"I don't need your sympathy. it's been like this for years. how do I know if this is one of your games or not?"
Grayson: "I'm really sorry."
I just put my headphones in my ears and fall asleep.
I wake up and see Grayson starring at me.
me: "why are you starting at me?"
Grayson just shrugs and looks away.
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Grayson's POV:
I saw the scars on Ashley and I feel terrible. I mean they are all from me. I have caused her to become sad and depressed. I feel like a terrible person. why am I even doing this? I'm such a jerk. I need to apologize to Ashley, I can't get her off my mind now. Why can't I get her off my mind? She is beautiful, nice, pretty, smart, oh my gosh, I think I might be falling in love with her. I fall asleep with the thought of her in my mind.
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At the hotel:
Ethan and Jack have left to buy food for the four of us for our fridge, so they will be gone for a while. I am left with Grayson, and he is in his room, so I go to the living room ( we are in a suite ) to see Grayson, and immediately regret it.
Grayson: "come here and watch this movie with me"
I go next to him and he stares at me the entire time.
Me: "can I ask you something?"
Grayson: "okay"
me: "why do you bully me?"
Grayson: "well I was thinking of that. Ever since we were younger, you and Ethan have been close and always left me out. I got jealous and you two were best friends and I always felt like a third wheel. so I wanted to get me anger out, and I just started to bully you."
me: "ok"
Grayson: "why are you nice to people if you get bullied?"
me: "I don't want to be rude and act as a bully because I get bullied and it feels terrible."
Grayson: "I am so sorry. I don't even know why I did that . I shouldn't of bullied you. I'm such a jerk. I wish we can be friends like we were when we were younger. I'm so so sorry Ashley. you aren't what and of my friends or I called you. you are so beautiful and smart. I'm sorry"
me: "thanks for the apology. I guess we can start over"
grayson: "thank you. where did you cut yourself because of me?"
me: "on my arms and legs"
I showed him some and remembered all the times I got bullied and a tear ran down my face. Grayson wiped it away and was crying by now.
"I can't believe I caused you to do this. I'm such a dumbass"
we continued watching the movie and he slowly put his arm around me and pulled me closer to him and I rested my head against him. he grabbed my hand and held onto it tightly. it felt so right even though it was wrong.