Same Stars

Chapter 36

Alice's P.O.V.

Bullshit. It's drizzling.

Does it always have to rain whenever something miserable happens to me? I strode back to the party, even when I've lost the hype, I was a little tipsy a while ago okay? Do I have a choice?

To be in a noisy place and be forced to endure the crappy atmosphere or to be sat next to your crush and just be treated like shit. Well I prefer the first.
I don't want to lie, I'm not a party animal. I just pretended to be, assuming it'll help me escape from him.

For a second I actually thought I had a chance with him. But I bet the universe is shaking its head, going "No child, just no." I'm pretty sure he did it for her, I was just too näive. Why does it have to be him? Why have I fallen for the guy, who made it clear to me from the beginning that he dislikes my guts. From the moment he pushed me down, to just a while ago in his car. He's even blaming me for his bad driving! How long will it take me to realize, that I'm just hurting myself.

Fuck destiny. They're probably signing a 'Let's Ruin Alice's Life contract' with the universe. The whole star thing, a complete lie! Yes I'm talking to you, hot thing from beyond the planet. You're not going to lead me anywhere but to an impasse. Mom was right, I should have listened. I always believed that shit's gonna heal my soul.

This is reality. Not everything has to go your way, or be something like the movies. There won't be any Bryce Loski planting a Sycammore tree in your yard. No magic time dust from 13 Going on 30 to change your present situation. If you act dumb, you might as well face the consequences. And certainly, believing on the chances of your crush feeling the same way is like counting the stars at night.

It's a waste of time.

"Your back." Okay stop interrupting my rant, I glared to where the voice came from and it was Liam Payne, in his jersey leaning unto a fence. I, secluded myself purposely here sat on the grass and tried to avoid Niall. It seems my invisibility skills are not working at the moment.

"Yes, Liam. And I prefer not to be bothered right now." I don't want anyone reminding me about the things that happened. My head is already throbbing don't make it burst.

"Niall's out there with an ice pack on his jaw" he laughs, clearly not paying attention to my mood. "He thought superman in glasses couldn't get a hit."

"Stop making fun of him." I mumbled in annoyance.

"Sorry." He laughs even harder.

I should be worried about the guy I just kissed, having to place an ice pack on his jaw. But I don't feel obligated to come in to the rescue, because he shouldn't have pushed him in the first place. Styles, on the other hand, was so damn rude. Doesn't he get it, I chose to go with him. Even if it risked my chances of not being forever alone. Whatever the situation is, I'd always choose him.

And I hate myself for that.

I'm mentally and physically tired to even walk my way back home. Should've brought my car, damn it. I started hitting myself in the head for that. "Hey, hey what's going on. Stop that."

You're still here...

"Sorry, I was just thinking of ways to get back home."

Although, he could be helpful enough to give me ride back home, so I could read a sad book and bitch about my life.
But no, I'm not going to ask another man to drive for me. Never again.

After that short pause, he walked away with his keys clinking. "I'll take you back, Niall will kill me if I left you here." I'll never let a guy drive me back... maybe after this.