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*Lynn's P.O.V.*

I woke up to a clear night, the sky full with sparkling stars. I slowly blinked a couple of times before quickly realizing what had happened between Camryn and I. I turned slightly, trying not to wake her. God, she's so fucking beautiful.

I sat up and rubbed my eyes. I got up and unfolded a blanket and placed it over Camryn. I checked my phone to see what time it was.

Fuck, 3:26 A.M.

Can't believe her and I stayed here that long.

I grabbed a pencil and ripped a piece of paper out of one of my notebooks I keep to sketch. Before writing anything, I glanced at the girl beside me. I smiled and began to write. I guess the emotions from last night we're still there and the paper had caught my tears, smearing some of the writing.

I folded the paper into fourths and wrote "Cams" on the front. I took the folded note and slid it next to her. I took the time to admire Camryn before walking away from everything that had made me happy within the past few months.

*Camryn's P.O.V.*

"Lynds, just listen to me-" I said with a smile on my face.

"Cams, don't worry I got it."

Lynn tried reaching for the paint at the top of the shelf. She needed paint to paint our secret spot. I tried telling her she was too short and that I could get it for her or get her a ladder, but she insisted on getting it herself.

"See I got it" she said while tipping the can off of the shelf.

"Wait, Lynds!-" I said pointing towards the lid that wasn't put on properly.

The can tipped over and spilt blue all over Lynn and all over the floor that, thankfully, had a plastic covering as well as everything that wasn't being painted.

Lynn turned around and wiped the paint off of her chin. "Well shit."

I chuckled and walked towards her. "I told you."

"I should've listened, I know." She said sounding annoyed. "Go away."

"What? Why?" I said sounding shocked.

Before I could do anything, Lynn ran at my full force with her arms out and squeezed me with her paint covered clothes.

"Lynds, what the fuck!" I shouted.

"I told you" she mimicking my tone of voice that I had used moments before.

"You're lucky these are old clothes." I said avoiding eye contact with her.

"You're lucky I love you." Instantly hesitant about what she just said.

My sight immediately met Lynn's. "What?" I said, my cheeks turning a bright pink, her's the same.

"I-...love you, Cams."

I woke up with my heart beating rapidly, exactly how it was in my dream.

Dream. It was just a dream.

Which really fucking sucks, because I missed having fun with Lynn. I missed her adorableness, that hid under her badass look. I missed her warm hugs. I missed her gorgeous voice that could be so soft and feel so comfortable. I missed us.

But that needed to stop. Lynn was right. As much as I wanted her back, we both weren't ready. Especially me. I could've sworn that I loved Lynn, but obviously proved myself wrong with my own actions. If there's a way I could prove that I love her, I'd do it in a heartbeat, but it's obvious that isn't an option. It's time to let go and move on.

I sat up and checked my phone. It was about 6 in the morning and I had a missed call from Jenna.

Fuck, she's probably wanting to beat the shit outta me, assuming she knows I hurt Lynn.

I sighed and proceeded to scroll through my phone, taking the blanket off my body, until something caught my eye. A letter with the name "Cams" written very neatly. I opened the folded piece of paper and began to read.

Dear Cams,

I'm sorry for everything. You don't deserve one bit of this, but I think it's for the best. I promise I'm not mad at you, and I forgive you, but I think we should stay distant from each other. I know I said we could be friends, but for obvious reasons I think it's a bad idea. I really don't want to lose you, Cams. But we need to let go.

Tear stains smudged the writing, making me feel awful knowing Lynn had been crying while writing this.

Anyway, you're welcome to come here whenever you'd like, considering this is basically your spot too. Last but not least, I want to tell you one last thing. Please don't cry or beat yourself up over this. I think we've both done enough of that. I will be okay, and hopefully you will be too.

Love,
Lynds

I didn't realize how much I was crying until I looked at the bottom of the paper to see how my tears smudged each blue line.

Why did I have to be so stupid and let her go? Why couldn't we be happy like we were in my dream? It all was building up to the point where I felt like screaming, but I kept my mouth shut and continued to breathe.

I guess the thing that hurt most was that we couldn't be friends. It makes sense, but I can't lose her. If I couldn't love her as my girlfriend, I sure as hell love her as my best friend.

*Lynn's P.O.V.*

"I swear, if she ever hurts you again, I will personally shove my foot up her ass." Jenna said, lifting her leg up like she going to kick something.

Her gesture made me burst out laughing, Tay doing the same.

"Jenna, I know you're pissed, but don't worry about it. I can handle myself. And plus her and I are on good terms right now."

"Still, you're our best friend. It's our job to defend you and kick ass for you, and make fun of you."

"Jenna, you love Camryn, so be quiet!" Tay shouted from across the room.

"Correction, used to." She said pointing in front of her.

I frowned at Jenna's comment. This is what I didn't want.

"Guys, let's just make this clear. What happened between Camryn and I has nothing to with you guys. Don't let me ruin your guy's friendship with her. She deserves it."

Both girls nodded in response, until a sly smirk appeared on Jenna's face.

"You're in love with her still. Aren't you?"

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