Only Love

twenty - three

*Lynn's P.O.V.*

I sat in my math class waiting for class to begin, but also waiting for Alexa to text me back. Her and I have been talking non-stop ever since Sunday. I swear she has an amazing personality, a good sense of humor, and she's really cute.

Everything was pretty awesome, except for Brian busting my ass about talking to Camryn. It was barely 8 o'clock and I knew Brian wouldn't let it go till I actually talked to her, but damn Brian give me a break!

She's in this class, but have absolutely no idea where she is. She's always on time, or early to this class.

Just as I spoke, Camryn walked through the door and sat in the seat beside me. She pulled out her phone and scrolled through it before noticing I was legit staring at her.

"Hey," I spoke quickly.

"Uh, hi",

Just as I was about to speak she beat me to it. "Do you not remember what I told you Saturday night?" She questioned.

"Uh, no I do, it's just that I-"

"Okay, then could you leave me alone. You're only making it worse,"

I was completely shocked by every word she said. I understood that she's mad at me, for what and why I'm not sure.

Without thinking I said the first thing that came to mind,

"When did you become such a bitch?"

"I could ask you the same question, Lynn,"

Anger quickly boiled up inside me as I clenched my fists.

"Seriously? I've been literally nothing but nice to you. I've even tried to be friends with you again!" I yelled, but soon got a look from my math teacher.

"Enough, Ms. Gunnulfsen. Alright class let's get started," My teacher rambled on, but Camryn and I just completely ignored him and continued arguing.

"Were you thinking of that when you were all over that girl?" She mumbled.

"What!?" I shouted louder than expected.

I received glares from all around the room including my teacher.

"Lyndsey, if talking is so important, why don't you tell whole class?" My teacher asked tapping his foot and crossing his arms.

I desperately wanted to embarrass Camryn in front of everyone, but I couldn't. She still means too much me, no how much I want to convince myself that I hate her, it's the total opposite.

I cleared my throat, "No, Sir",

"If you don't speak now, both you and Camryn will be sent outside for the rest of the period,"

I rolled my eyes and walked to the door. Camryn followed behind, looking a little shocked. We both slipped through the door and sat next to each other, leaning on the lockers.

"Sorry about that. It gives us more time to talk though," I laughed nervously.

She laughed and sighed afterwards.

"You didn't answer my question, Lynds,"

My breath hitched.

I felt like I haven't heard that name in so long and it was like music to my ears. I honestly really missed us, not 'friends' us, no. I miss Camryn being my girlfriend. I miss playing with her hair while cuddling. I miss kissing her whenever I felt like it. But most of all, I miss loving her. I still do love her and every time I said it, I meant it. But I broke it off because I got scared. I had never fallen in love that fast, but it's the best thing that's every happened to me and I let it all slip between my fingers.

"Lynds?" Camryn said. "You good?"

"Yeah, yeah. I'm fine," I said nodding my head, not looking her in the eye.

"No you aren't,"

How the hell does she know me so well?

I sighed and prevented my tears from falling but I failed. I saw two tears fall and race down my cheeks and hit my jeans.

"Lynds, why are you crying?" Camryn yelled before wrapping her arms around me.

"You're right," I said chuckling.

She tilted her head in confusion.

"I shouldn't have talked to you today,"

Camryn looked confused still so I decided to explain more, not caring about whether or not I started crying.

"I made it worse. I was just trying to make sure I'd still have you in my life. Brian's been busting my ass about talking to you, and I finally got the courage to do it. Except I've been hit with a hurricane of memories that I miss so fucking much,"

"Like?" Camryn asked.

"I miss you," I whispered. "But it's too late for that,"

"Yeah, probably because you're in love with that girl from the concert," She said confidently.

"What? Why would I be in love her? I just met her," I said realizing my hypocrite move.

"You met me right away and claimed that you loved me. And we kissed," She pointed out.

"Cams, that's different and you know that," I said, my voice growing shakey.

"How?" She questioned.

"Because I loved you. I still do love you."

A tear escaped my eye and traveled down my face. I was waiting for her to wipe it away like she always did, but she just continued to stare at me.

"Then why'd we-"

"Because I was scared okay? I had never been so in love with someone and I've never fallen in love that fast. I got scared and made an excuse to push you away. I regret it so much," I said allowing more tears to fall.

"I'm dating Lexi," Camryn blurted out.

I felt my heart rip in half.

"Oh,"

"Yeah, and I think I'm falling for her,"

"Seriously? I pour out pretty much all of my feelings and you treat them like shit as if I never said anything. Then you talk about how you're falling in love with a girl who fucking drugged me at a party so I couldn't control what I was doing. And because I couldn't control what I was doing, you got upset," I said shaking my head. "Why'd you even get mad in the first place?" I asked angrily.

"Because I was in love with you," she breathed. "But, I'm love with Lexi and I will make sure we don't make the same mistake you and I did,"

My heart shattered into a million pieces. I'm not sure if there was anything anyone could ever do to fix it.

I couldn't get any words out. I wanted to tell her how much I needed her. How wrong she about dating Lexi, because I can guarantee that they won't last. I wanted to tell her how much I love her, but nothing would come out.

"Thank you," she spoke quietly.

"What for?" I wondered trying to hold more tears from falling.

"For bringing out the best in me. I know it may seem like our relationship was a total mistake, but it wasn't. It was an amazing experience,"

Ouch.

Before I could say reply, the bell rang and she hurried off somewhere. I was left sitting alone against the lockers while everyone crowded through the halls.

I closed my eyes and breathed calmly. How the fuck did I mess this up so bad?

Ouchie. This chapter kinda hurt my heart. So this book will be ending vv soon, but I'm positive there will be a part 2/sequel. Hope you guys are enjoying this! I will update a bit more because I'm now on spring break, so whoo. Love ya guys- bmthaf