Only Love

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*Camryn's P.O.V.*

Those words kept repeating in my head. Over and over, again and again. I could feel myself blushing.

"Are you sure?" I asked.

She sighed. "Not really.. but I-."

My phone rang over Lyndsey's voice. I grabbed my phone and stared at the caller ID.

Fuck.

"Hey baby!"

"Hey. Listen can I call you back later?"

"What? Why?"

"Kat, just please can I call you later?"

"Alrigh sorry baby. Love you."

"Bye."

I quickly hang up the phone. And I see Lyndsey staring at me. I try to think of words to say, but she beats me to it.

"Fuck, look Camryn I'm sorry. I should've respected your relationship. It completely slipped my mind and I'm sorry. Still friends?" She held her arms out waiting for my response.

I nodded and took the hug she was offering.

I wanted Lyndsey so bad. But Kat, is my girlfriend. I can't do that to her. Can I? I mean after all, she's been the one causing me pain. And the one time she actually decides to give a fuck about me, it ruins a moment I was having with Lyndsey. I just wish I could feel her soft lips against mine again.

"Sorry again. I think I'm just confused. If anyone finds out I'm fucked." Lyndsey said quietly.

"Why do you say that? Does nobody know you like girls?"

"Camryn, I didn't even know I liked girls.." She said quickly.

"Oh, well-"

Lynn's phone rang and she picked up quickly.

"Hey Brian. Yeah. Shit okay. I'm on my way."

She hung up the phone and looked at me.

"You ready? Completely forgot I have practice. Wanna come meet my buds Brian and Alex?" She said trying to change the subject.

I just went with it and nodded. Lyndsey organized everything back to it's a original spot and headed down the ladder. I followed down and she grabbed my hand again, leading the way out. She let go of my hand, and rested her head on my shoulder as we reached the sidewalk.

"I'm sorry again Cam. Can I call you Cam?" She asked, her head still resting on my shoulder.

A laughed a little. "Sure." I said. "Should I call you Lynn?"

"No, Lynn's too normal. Everyone calls me that."

I nodded in agreement until a name popped into my head.

"How about Lynds?"

"I love it."

Later on...

*Camryn's P.O.V.*

Lynn had dropped me off at my house after her band practice, which was amazing by the way. Her friends Brian and Alex were really awesome and not to mention hilarious.

The band practice had only partially stalled my reoccurring thoughts about what happened between Lynn and I. Everytime I think about Lynn, I can feel my heart race and myself smile.

My smile soon faded once I reached my house. I hate it here. I'm left here all alone pretty much all the time. My mom works all the time, which I appreciate a lot but, I just wish I could be with her more often.

All there is to do is eat, sleep, and try to pass by the hours by staring at my phone or watching pointless tv. I should probably call Kat back.

"Hey baby!"

"Hey Kat.."

"Everything okay Camzies?"

I fucking hated that name. I don't know what about it that pisses me off so much, but I hate it and Kat knows that.

"Kat, you know I hate that name."

She giggled which made me become even more disgusted.

"Kat we need to talk."

"Uh, what else would we do on the phone?" She said sarcastically.

"Kat, now isn't the time. Now cut it out and listen." I took a deep breath and let the words flow out.

"We've been drifting apart and you barely take the time to talk to me. It's usually me caring about you, way more than you care about me. And-".

I stopped talking immediately once I heard a slight moan from the background. A waited a little longer to hear another moan and Kat laughing quietly.

"Kat, what the fuck. You're fucking cheating on me aren't you."

I hear two different laughs before Kat says, "No, of course not Camzies."

I hung up the phone. I was so confused. I wasn't sure how to feel. Sad, angry, happy? More importantly, I wanted to see Lynn. Lynn would make me feel so much better. I don't want to bother her though. I mean, she broke up with her boyfriend today and even though she took it like she didn't give a fuck, inside I know she's hurting.

*Lynn's P.O.V.*

Band practice was pretty awesome. We came up with a couple new ideas to finish up our song. We came up with a couple band names but they weren't that great.

More importantly, Brian and Alex both got along with Camryn which made my day even more wonderful than it had already been. Only problem is, I couldn't stop thinking about not only what happened between Camryn and I, but also that I broke up with Jake. I acted like I didn't care, and frankly I didn't. Until now.

I guess I never really realized how much I loved Jake. As much as he deserved it, I miss him so much. I didn't even realize I was close to tears.
Fuck. Worst of all, why did I kiss Camryn. I mean don't get me wrong, it was pretty fucking awesome but, if I'm not over Jake and Camryn has a girlfriend that is probably way prettier than me, I shouldn't have done it.

I felt tears run down my cheeks. I wanted to see Camryn. Something about her made me feel, okay. She made me feel like nothing mattered. Just me and her. But I can't be with her. That's the way it has to be.

Thoughts raced through my mind as I tried to fall asleep. It was only 5, but I had nothing else to do. I shut my eyes and tried to clear my mind and eventually I fell asleep.

A/N

Hey guys I really hope you're enjoying this story and thank you for actually reading it and vote for it! Let me know what you think of it so far. Also, I'm planning on writing a new story soon. Tell me what you want me to write. ANYWAY THANKS GUYS. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH - bmthaf